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Finally Found My Strength - 4 1/2 Years Later

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Written by chookie67 10. Mar 2008 10:46 AM

I am really happy with myself today as yesterday I found the strength to face the 2 people that I hate in the world - i know hate is a strong word - but these people are in that category by a long way - They have made my life miserable by framing me for something and walking away scott free, don't get me wrong, I was to blame for a bit of what happened by not as much as I was punished for - and to have the strenght to fight it, which i didn't have, I wore the lot. During this time, I was also nearly hit by their car when they deliberatly aimed it at me. My family has suffered and to this day, I am still coming to terms with what I have been through.
Yesterday, I went to a function to see my old workmates - the council is amalgamating - and I walked in to the hall looking for my mum and her friends, one of the 2 saw me and made a scene looking like she wanted to talk to me - i nearly threw up, went cold, started shaking - but something inside me said screw you 2 - i have paid for what I did and I have every right to be here - all through the function I felt them looking at me but with my mum by my side, I got through it, and I am very proud of my self to finally stand up to these 2 people that I despise. The main one of the 2 walked away with his head down - if that isn't guilty - what is.
I feel a little relieved that I did have to confront them, it makes another step in the healing process easy to deal with as I was dreading the day.
Thanks for Reading and Take Care
Lynne

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Comments from the community:

hey chookie,

I agree...you should be proud of yourself for standing up to those who framed you for something.

I believe everyone should stand up for themself, especially when you were not fully responsible.

I admire you for your honesty too, some people tend to put others as the full blame where as you have admitted that you are aware that you were partly responsible.

Its great you stayed at the function yesterday and i hope you enjoyed the day even thou you had the feeling they were always watching you, thats not a good feeling i know and makes us feel uncomfortable at times.

Good on you Lynne and take care
mickm

Written by Deleted_User, 10. Mar 2008 11:01 AM

Hi Chookie,

Congratulations, I am very proud of you for standing up to the people who have made your life hard and miserable. As you found out it takes so much courage, and you found that courage within yourself to take these horrid people on - and WIN.

They are full blown cowards for treating you the way they have, and unfortunately there are so many of these people in this world, we all have to confront them sooner or later, or continue to be wrongly blamed for things.

I am glad your Mum was by your side as this obviously gave you some of the confidence you needed to stay at the function and not run away from the situation.

Again, well done Lynne.

Luv Nouse

Written by Nouse, 10. Mar 2008 12:54 PM

Ooooooooooo I SOOO hate it wen ppl do that-start tellin a real juicy story & leave me hangin...
Come on Chook- tell all!
What happened???
Mmmwa
Gyps
xxx

Ps- glad u finally realised wot we all know bout u...... Yr one gutsy lady!!!
Mmmmmmmmwa

Written by Gyps, 10. Mar 2008 02:54 PM

Chook

Well done for staying and standing up for yourself. You did really well and you need to pat yourself on your back for coping so well.

Go Chook!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 10. Mar 2008 06:12 PM

GO CHOOKIE!!!!!!!!!!

Onya girl, I too am so proud of you for having the strength to face these people or should I say Low Lifes. It takes a Brave person to stand up and face this,you go friend.
It was nice that Mum was with you, just in case you needed her, but obviously you didnt. I dont judge people, and I consider you my mate no matter what your life has held for you. Hell, we have all done things we arent proud of.
You go Lynne, My favourite TOUGH OLD CHOOK.
xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxox
Love Les

Written by lesleyk, 10. Mar 2008 06:42 PM

I'm really proud of you Mum,but I think I've said that to you so many times lately that I need to find a new saying..
You have been my strength lately and I'm so lucky to call you my 'bush mummy'..
You did so well Lynnie and I wish I could give you a great big hug but I suppose I'll just have to let Daddy Glen to do that for me until the day I can do it for real and not let go..
You are so strong and inspiring and I admire you greatly..You have this ability to make me laugh even when I'm in the worse mood...

Love you lots and lots and lots!!(and even more lotser!!)
Jo xoxoxoxoxoxo

Written by JoanneC84, 10. Mar 2008 09:29 PM

Chookie

That is one huge step towards recovery and you should be extremely proud of yourself. Well done.

Jenny

Written by lifesucks, 10. Mar 2008 11:23 PM

Hi Chookie,
Well done you faced something that was a huge fear for you and you did it well, must feel like a huge weight has been lifted from your shoulders.
You are an amazing fun person chookie and i am so glad we have the chance to get to know each other.
Please take care

((((((((((((chookie)))))))))))))

B1

Written by bananas, 13. Mar 2008 03:49 AM