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Update -Dear Diary, Please Tell Me Why Do I Feel How I Feel

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Written by chookie67 10. Feb 2008 09:54 PM


Updated - Thank you to the lovely caring people who left messages on my diary = I am to see my doctor tomorrow and will let you know how i go.
Thank you for caring about me. You are wonderful people and am happy to call you my friends
Take care


Dear Diary,
Can you please let me in on the secret of knowing the reason to why i feel so damn miserable.
I have been like this for days and just can't get the feeling of something terrible is going to happen. I am anxious, on edge, shaky and snap at anything that is said to me. I feel like I want to cry and cry but no matter how hard I try, the tears wont come
I wish you would try and be more cooperative and let me know when you are going to put these moods and feelings on me, at least then I wouldhave someone to blame or at the worst be prepared.
I don't want to feel like this. I usually only have a smoke every now and then, but the last few days I am smoking more than usual. I am drinking more than usual as well just so I can feel a little happier
Maybe it is the medication I am on, reading the side effects off the net before maybe it is. I will ring my doctor tomorrow and ask her, but I am scared that she will tell me to stop them, but they are the only way that I can sleep and not have my head racing 100klms an hour.
I just want to be happy like I was last week. The way I feel at the moment, I just want to run away from my life and not return until I feel better.
Once again Dear Diary, can u please explain what u have done to me.
I await your reply
Chookie

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Comments from the community:

Chookie

It is hard to know what causes the mood swings... the meds might be causing it... so stopping them might solve part of the problem... as to the thoughts going a million miles an hour... distraction... distraction...

and you can never go back to what it was like last week... time goes on... all you can do is hope that you are able to find the happiness again...

not sure the diary can answer you...

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 10. Feb 2008 10:11 PM

Sweety,

I really don't know what to say. I think ringing the doc tomorrow is a good idea. I hope your mood lifts soon.

Take care.

Love,
WD

Written by WhiteDove, 10. Feb 2008 10:17 PM

Chook

It may have something to do with you auto immunine disability that was diagnosed. I remember you writing about it in someone's dairy recently - like 2-3 days. Call the doctor and make sure it isn't that and it is just the depression and you having a bit of a slide.

Go Chook!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 10. Feb 2008 10:40 PM

I was just going to talk to you on msn but you signed out as I signed in, so just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and sending you e-hugs. Take care Lynne

Written by babz, 10. Feb 2008 10:46 PM

Hi chookie
I wish i could be of more help, so sorry to hear u r feeling this way, i think speaking to ur doc would be a very good idea.
Please don't over do the use of alchohol and smokes they might help in the short term but over use will just create more problems.
Do u have anyone who could pick u up and take u out for the day, maybe some time out of the house would help.
Take care chookie and i'll be thinking of u.

((((((((((((((chookie))))))))))))))

B1

Written by bananas, 11. Feb 2008 01:55 AM

Chook

It is the non auto immune disease that you mentioned in Zombie's diary that I am wondering is causing you to feel down/unwell.

Speak to your doctor and also check to see if this disease is contributing in any way to the way you are feeling.

Ciggies and alcohol don't help things as they only give short term relief. You need a definite answers on your health generally. Sorry for the first entry as I forgot who's entry you wrote in but I went back and had a look and found it/what your illness is called because I got it wrong in my original entry. Sorry Chook!!!

Go Chook!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 11. Feb 2008 04:31 AM