Why Does The Past Always Come Back to Haunt Us
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Written by chookie67 5. Aug 2008 11:27 PM
Just answer me one question - WHY
I have been going along so well lately, happy and content with my life - yeah i have ups and downs but in general feeling pretty happy. Had a wonderful visit from BJ and have made so great friends on here who support me without judgement.
Then BAM the past comes back and pushes me right back down again. I was filling out a job application and it asked a question that I hadn't been asked before and it scared the crap out of me - I only now have realised what a huge stuff up I have made of my life due to a major stuff up 5 years ago that caused so much heartache for my family. I wish I could change the past, but I can't. People say don't worry about it but it really hurts and I am so damn frustrated and angry with myself for allowing myself to become weak and do what I did.
I sound like I am talking gibberish but I don't want to say what I have done. I just feel so low at the moment, just an ache in the heart - complete let down i suppose - I knew this day would come, but I didn't want to face it.
I will be ok, I just have to face my demons and accept what I have done and try to move on and find self esteem and confidence again.
Take care everyone
Lynne