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Written by WhiteDove 6. Apr 2008 04:30 PM

thank you everyone for the wonderful comments. I was very uplifting and i really needed that.

didn't get any studying done yesterday. was too tired.

when i woke up this morning, i din't want to get out of bed. wanted to sleep in the whole day. usually on Sundays, mum and other sisters help with taking care of dad - its sort of my rest day.

i told myself that i'll have a bit of breakfast and then go back to sleep. but i didn't. i took it hour by hour. breakfast, shower, rest, coffee, studied for five minutes (better than nothing). my sisters were going to get a hair cut so i tagged along. thought i deserved a hair cut and a neck massage. the massage was good. my hair is extremely short right now and its curly everywhere, except my fringe is straight. i feel i look like a kid. lol.

today hasn't been that bad. i managed to do the basic things incuding a hair cut. i still have no energy for exercise, but its ok, one thing at a time.

tomorrow is a very busy day for me. work, uni, hip hop and i have to study for my test on Tuesday. i really don't think i'll manage but i am not going to think about it now. just get through today. baby steps.

we are getting chinese tonight. so thats good. don't need to help mum cook.

i have been trying to find dad's present. still no luck so far.

also, i did something i would not have done and still not sure why i did it. i got a text from one of my close friends inviting me to go clubbing with her cause its her birthday. i texted back and said sure. i am pretty sure i won't go. i can't. i am not ready yet. i still have a long more way to go to get there. i might text her back and say i am no sure, but i'll try. hope she doesnt get made. she needs to make reservations.

going to wake dad up and mkae him a cuppa. then i am going to try and get some stuudying done.

thanks again for the support deppies.

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Comments from the community:

Hey Dove,

That is one of the most positive diary entries i have read from you, i am very pleased.

I am proud of you for getting out with your sisters and getting the hair cut that you so badly needed, it always makes me feel better if my hair is ok, vain maybe, but whatever works in my book.

I think you will handle tomorrow as well as you can, try to think positive about it, i'm sure it will help you.
Just remember, you can only do what you can do, baby steps are great and seem to be working for you.

Enjoy your chinese dinner tonight with Dad, i think you have made a good decision to stay in and spend the night with him, especially as it is for his birthday.

Go clubbing with your friend, it may just be the tonic you need, doesn't have to ba an all nighter if you don't want it to be, but get out and enjoy yourself, do something for you.

Again, congrats on the positive entry.

Luv ya heaps,

Luv Nouse

Written by Nouse, 6. Apr 2008 04:41 PM

WD

I'm with Nouse. You know how to be positive when you need to and this is a very positive entry and it is very good to see you being so positive.

Good on you for going with your sisters and getting a haircut - god to think I used to pay for curls!!! I'm jealous you have natural curls!!!

Have a good night eating chinese. I'm jealous of that one as well but it is for dad so make it a special night for you all.

Some study is better than no study so don't be hard on yourself - little bits are better than trying to cram large amounts that are likely to be forgotten.

Baby steps for tomorrow. Hope it is a better day for you.

Go WD!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 6. Apr 2008 05:53 PM

Y'know, I don't know you, but the part you wrote about going clubbing (or not going clubbing) really caught my eye.

Sometimes we have to force ourselves to do things, but think about this - this time its not all about you. It's about your friend. It's her birthday, and without laying a guilt trip on you, she's humbly invited you because...she wants to be with you! She wants to be with YOU!! She wants to share the day/night with YOU!!

The very fact that someone wants to share their birthday with you is in itself a gift. Maybe its a hard gift for you to accept, but I reckon, that if you put your needs aside and go celebrate with your friend, you might just have a great night out.

If we wait and wait until we're ready, then we never really will be! Take a leap of faith, and have a great night out!

Written by g463, 6. Apr 2008 09:50 PM

Well done dove, I'm so proud of you!

Written by babz, 6. Apr 2008 10:27 PM

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