CBT homework: Thoughts about goodbyes
A page in the diary "Good mourning!"
Written by Luise 31. Dec 2007 06:14 AM
Hi diary and everybody out there,
today I received some phone calls and two people came to see my apartment. I need a follow-up tenant when I go to spain. I had put an advert in the paper.
I didn't realize before that I really would have to leave my apartment and especially that I would not be able to come back to my beloved place after somebody else had moved in. It was quite a shock!
Let's see if there's anything positive or comforting:
1) It is my own decision what to do with the apartment, and nobody can force me to leave it. When I need to keep my place for some more time, I can keep it or I can try to find someone who will stay only for some months. It is nothing but a question of money. But I CAN DECIDE IT.
2) Our house has a new owner since last month, and the future for the house and it's tenants is doubtful. It is much better to go to spain voluntarily and with the chance of a new good life than to leave the house because of being throwed out by the owner when he wants to renovate the building.
3) It is absolutely normal to be sad, because I loved my home and I have been living here for a very long time. It would be unnatural if I would not have sad moments about it – no matter what good things lie ahead.
4) Goodbyes are never easy. But realizing my pain this is a chance to experience this goodbye conciously – I could even "celebrate" it, do everything I need to say goodbye to my "old life" in an appropriate way, like enjoy everything for a last time and then say "hello" to the new life.
5) I will not loose everything I have. I may say goodbye to my place, but that doesn't mean saying goodbye to my town and my friends.
6) Life is change. It is in constant development, and we cannot make time stand still. We cannot stick to anything forever. People come, people leave, relationships change, things get broken, other things begin, we lose things and find other things, we grow older, and all we can do is collect memories. The less we cling to something, the more freedom we feel inside our souls.
7) I will say goodbye to something I loved, but who knows – maybe my new life is even much better?
8) I NEED this change. I would be much more miserable if I would have to stay here and if nothing would change. The change is definitely the better alternative, although parts of it are not easy.
Love,
Luise.