I've got a job and I'm so afraid
A page in the diary "Good mourning!"
Written by Luise 6. Sep 2007 07:31 AM
Hi diary and everybody out there,
I had a job interview today - in a big advertising agency near my hometown where my parents still live.
I thought it was a good idea applying there, as I still have some old friends around there, and my new/old therapist also, and, of course, my parents - so I thought I would have a good network of friends if I go there.
The interview went really nice, and at the end they told me that they want me for the job. They were full of enthusiasm for my work and full of sympathy for me.
And they are really nice people.
I was shocked. Happy, yes. It's always nice to hear compliments. But I'm also scared - now it is really happening. I have been talking about a new job in a new town for two years, but now it is going so fast. How will I cope with these changes? Am I deciding for the right thing? Will I be lonely there in my new town? I will miss my friends so much. I will miss everything that is familiar to me. I didn't realize how much I'm scared about these changes until I started to look for apartments on the internet, and saw a lot of ugly pictures of ugly apartments. Will I find a new home, as beautiful as the one I have at the moment? The task of inding an apartment seems so overwhelming. I don't have much money. I will be bankrupt after moving.
And what will I do with my poor cat?
It's so hard to do and decide all this stuff alone. Sometimes I just wish for someone to accompany me through life.
Luise.