About depression Help with depression Help for relatives Society DepNet Community My Depression

Read diary

No motivation

A page in the diary "Prison of pain and loneliness"
Written by lynda 23. Jul 2008 05:14 PM


Today I saw my psychologist. And after a long chat and more chain analysis sheets, I still haven`t work out why I am still selfharming.

I need other people to talk to, but feel I am a nuisance and that I have nothing to offer anyone else in exchange for information.

I don`t eat and stay up late most nights until everything goes all crazy. How much longer can I keep up with all of this?.

« Prev page | Next page »
 

Comments from the community:

Lynda

Self harming is usually expressing the pain you are feeling... you want to physically feel the emotional pain... so maybe you need to ask yourself what has happened in your life recently that you feel you can't talk about... you said you want to talk but have no one to talk to... it might be something you dismiss as unimportant... but it means a lot to you because it reminds you of being a child and not able to tell anyone about the pain...

Somehow deep down you do know why you are self harming... it might be to prevent yourself from feeling the emotional pain of abandonment or rejection or out of control on the emotional rollercoaster...

I am sorry you are not able to talk to someone about this... i know the hour or so with the psychologist is not enough to talk about things in depth...

go to chat... ppl will listen...

take care...

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 23. Jul 2008 06:28 PM

Lynda

Cate is very right about self harming. What has clicked in your life recently to be causing the harming? Work that out and then perhaps the psychologist/psychiatrist/gp can help you. We harmers harm for a reason - you just have to work out what the reason is and work on it.

Go Lynda!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 23. Jul 2008 06:38 PM

Dr Phil says people self harm to quieten internal noise.
A sort of distraction, meditation thing.
All the best Lynda.

Written by maple, 24. Jul 2008 09:26 AM