My day and the shock of my emails!!! Mention of self harming!!!
A page in the diary "She who must be obeyed thinks she is always right!!!"
Written by studying1 9. May 2008 03:21 PM
Migraines, meds and sleep. Hubby wasn't screaming at people on the phone today and I was able to sleep. Was great to get the sleep I needed.
Read my emails and got one that upset me - perhaps they are right that I don't understand them but this person is an amazing person and I am trying very hard to understand them and what they are going through with their illness. I hope that someday a change may happen because they are my hero and very special to me because they can cope with their illness/life better than I am doing.
Hubby is going to work early to go and get some xrays compared with recent ones taken. Will now mean I am going to be paranoid about someone breaking into the house - feel sure I have heard people trying to get in my security door before.
Might make the vege soup on the weekend now I have got everything and the saga of getting the stuff is over. Don't know what is happening on Sunday because hubby will have to sleep until at least lunch time and then we may go and see our respective mothers. Got to find the box of goodies which are great presents for mothers/friends and get one for each mum.
At the advice of the psychologist I have sent my solicitor some instructions about settling this matter before going to court if possible. I haven't got a reply from her yet which I guess means no counter offer. Psychologist wanted to see the wedding rings and engagement rings so I showed her the both of them and told her the story of the rings - wedding ring is hubby's grandmother's and engagement ring is one of Queen Bee's and hubby changed the stone to a pink sapphire.
Haven't heard from my bridesmaid this week and I rang her on Wednesday night to make sure everything is okay between us and she said it was. It was just their ISP isn't working with hotmail. Relieved we are okay. Missed our daily catch up - she realised she should have sent the emails from work but the phone call was more important because I know it is the truth.
I am getting ready to see the gp on Tuesday for a medical health assessment to see the dietician to loose some of this weight. I will be able to mention to the psychiatrist when I see him I have done this/working to loose some of this weight.
Still haven't heard from Queen Bee - psychologist was stunned by that. I haven't told hubby about this but I mentioned it to my psychologist that now we are married we are financially independent and perhaps we should have gotten married earlier given this is the Queen's reaction.
Still self harming - was bad last night and today I have managed to control it so far. I love the suggestion of the red pen but I don't think it will help me stop/change it because I harm in places where I don't let the public see it. Psychologist had a peak yesterday and said I need to do some work on controlling it.
Cate, I have put in my letter to Dr S about the Mental Health Nurse and the personal helpers and mentor you get through Dr T and see if I am eligible for help under the federal government system. Be interesting to see what Dr S says as I really don't think outreach benefit me enough - talk to me but don't bet me out of the house to beat my phobia about being outside by myself, get me cleaning up my house.
Take Care All!!!
Mrs Studying1
PS We are off the market now. Agent is pushing me to reduce the price further and we need all the possible money we can get for the qld place to get to Tassie and hopefully be dedt free. Alas another shittey thing for the week.