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Written by studying1 7. May 2008 07:14 PM

Migraine, meds and sleep. We were supposed to go to hubby's parents place but that didn't happen. Hubby spent the morning trying to see if he can get any help for me so I can stay in the townhouse if it doesn't sell.

Market in Brissy is supposed to be still booming so I don't think I am sabotaging our chances to sell. It is the job of the agent to sell it.

Changed our trip to Tassie to later in July. Have to ring 14 days before we leave to see if we can extend it as I feel I need to because we didn't get to see much when we were there for our honeymoon. Hubby seemed okay about the change - it will still be winter so we can test the climate. The agent trying to sell our place suggested renting out my place and renting in Tassie but that won't happen as rentals are hard to get - though we may investigate that further when we are there in July.

We went and did some grocery shopping - got my liquid stock so I can do the soup tomorrow. Hubby got small containers of all the liquid stocks and that won't work because you can't mix them all in so I got vege stock for vege soup. Got to soak the soup mix - fun!!!

Paid the money to Queen Bee's account and let her know it has been paid - went to the answering service. Spoke to my psychologist - she called again about my appoingment tomorrow and I called her back and said I will be there - actually spoke to her and not her answering machine - was dumbstruck when she actually answered the phone and it didn't go to the message machine as it usually does. Obviously she didn't have a patient when I called.

Checked and read my emails. I have been emailing my solicitor and last night I sent her a new victim impact statement - but she did not acknowledge it so I guess she is busy and hasn't had a chance to read it. Was told what to do about the trust account - looks like the money will have to go in because I don't see the case settling before the tribunal date.

Just did my depnet test and I got the lowest score I have ever had 79. Don't know what the psychiatrist will say about that - probably nothing as he uses them to monitor my mood. Will have to tell him that it is down to 79. Guess it is down because of the weekend with my sister and still listening/thinking about the things she said.

I got out in the yard again this afternoon and watered the plants. Felt nice to be out in the sun, even if I was still in my pj's - was before we went grocery shopping.

I have been harming and will discuss this with the psychologist tomorrow - she asks about it everytime I see her.

Take Care All!!!

Mrs Studying1

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Comments from the community:

Hey Mrs Studying,

I am very pleased that you are going to keep your psychologist appointment tomorrow, it will be good to tell her your new Depnet score, that is very good.

Please try not to harm yourself, it doesn't help anything in the long run, and i know this as i have been there myself.

Glad you are doing ok, take care

Nouse

Written by Nouse, 7. May 2008 08:27 PM

Mrs Studying1

Thank you for your comment... MHN is from the Federal MH Incentive Scheme for GP's, Psychs... do not know about Outreach... not sure I am ill enough for support... I do get support from Personal Helpers and Mentors Scheme... also Fed funded... but psych got mhn to help resolve my accommodation problems.. but i won't go on a diet or get gastric banding or sell my house... or find alternative accommodation... or supported accommodation... anyway .. i didn't want to talk about me.. i wanted to tell you I think watering the plants is a very healthy thing to do... and you are coping better than you thought you were.. lowest scores on depnet test... and the settlement and the idea of moving interstate... and dealing with migraine etc... the self harm is a bit of a safety valve from the old days... some habits are hard to break... under stress... and congrats on getting the stock... it has been a saga... making the veggie soup... wonder about the self harm in your eating of late... you have been a bit harmful with it...

anyway... i appreciate your comment... i shall see my pdoc next week... maybe he will tell me to go too...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 7. May 2008 08:42 PM

Hi Mrs Studying1,

Proud of you for getting out into the garden and soaking up some sunshine, well done and I hope it eased things a little for you.

Also glad you're going to speak to your psych about your self harming (I too have been known to do it - long sleeves in summer no fun at all). Have you tried just drawing in your arms with a bright red texta, you can be as savage as you want and it still won't hurt you physically.

Take care,

Luv Fly xxx

Written by fly, 7. May 2008 10:50 PM

Mrs Studying1
I heard that the property market in Brisbane has taken a bit of a dive due to rising interest rates. However, I also read somewhere that there probably won't be any more interest rate rises in 2008.
There is definitely a calling for rental properties here at the moment - maybe that's the way to go. I am astounded at the prices landlords are charging these days! And people are actually paying!
Good luck, hope it all goes to plan the way you want it to.
Maya

Written by Maya, 7. May 2008 11:10 PM