My mind is playing tricks on me!
A page in the diary "A Day in the Life Of..."
Written by babz 9. May 2008 04:27 PM
My mind is playing tricks on me. Over the last few days I have been misplacing stuff really easily. Aside from that I find stuff in a place I swear on my life I didn't put it. I find lights left on when I could swear I'd turned them off and taps running when I hadn't even used them. I constantly hear things like my phone ringing, alarm going off or ambulance sirens when they're not even there (well, I can't guarantee the ambulance sirens weren't real, but my phone definitely hasn't been ringing and my alarm definitely hasn't been going off).
Today I walked up to front steps after being out for an hour or so to see my cat Charli staring out the front window at me. Not in itself so weird except for the fact that I KNOW I locked her outside when I left. I called Mum and step dad but neither of them had been home, so clearly my mind is just playing tricks on me. I'm quite upset by this, not because I think someone has broken in - somebody would have to be REALLY bored to break into a house just to let my cat in and not touch anything else - but because my mind is betraying me.
This morning I was getting ready for DBT but was running late so was going to have fruit for breakfast in the car. One minute I had the banana in my hand, the next I had absolutely no idea where it would be - I hadn't moved anywhere! Would have just left it, but wherever the banana was my keys were too as they were both in my hand. Took me 5 minutes to find the damn things, and they were in the spot where I had looked for them no less than 5 times. I'm losing my marbles!!
This is very out of character for me, and I don't like it one little bit. Hopefully it is just because I'm very tired - yesterday was a long day with skating from 6:30-8am and 4-7:30pm as well as having to do everything else I would normally do on a normal day - uni, housekeeping etc. I will catch up on sleep tomorrow and hopefully my mind will stop playing tricks on me! It is really unnerving!!!