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Written by babz 3. May 2008 10:20 PM
I find in times of ok-ness or relative stability that I start wishing I wasn't getting better - in fact I almost want to be worse again. Perhaps it is the drama of Ambulances, Police, Emergency Departments/Intensive Care and psych hospitals that I find appealing, perhaps I have gotten used to it and it is really all I know in my adult life. Either way it is so scary that I find myself wishing I was that sick again. It is even scarier that I have really intense urges to do things to put myself back there. Sometimes I even give in to them.
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