Ouch
A page in the diary "A Day in the Life Of..."
Written by babz 13. Mar 2008 08:51 PM
Really going downhill. I had to leave DBT today because I was in so much physical pain that I couldn't stand to sit in the chair any longer. Physical pain is my Achilles heel - it makes me emotional and out of control. Drove home with every bump in the road making me want to scream, took some heavy duty painkillers and then got sick as hell.
I couldn't stand up, I wanted to vomit and I felt so faint, so I went and had a nap. Against my better judgement forced myself to skating. Had a slow start as I was tired, sore and feeling very sick, but I picked up halfway through my lesson. Landed some good jumps and got some good spins too, footwork was a little hard as my knee is really sore and my back is rather screwed so I didn't have much control.
Had a few falls, but not too bad, until the last 5 minutes of the session when I fell out of a spin. Not sure what happened, one minute I was in a great position, next I was sprawled on the ice staring at the ceiling in a ridiculous amount of pain. Came home again with every bump in the road making me want to scream and took more painkillers - I hope that I'm not accidentally overdosing myself, I have been relying on them very heavily the last few days. Think I might take myself off to the GP tomorrow to make sure all is ok - this much pain is not normal.
Thankfully I have nothing on tomorrow until skating in the late afternoon. I have to force myself to do some study, it is only week 2 and I am already behind. I have to do well this semester, so much is at stake. In all likelihood I'll probably spend most of the day in bed, I really can't be bothered with life at the moment.
I'm sorry I've been slack with reading diaries, I will try and catch up over the weekend. Love to you all