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Oh Babz I am so sorry you feel so bad, and sorry to hear about your job too.

Are you seeing apsychiatirst?
Do you really need to advise your BPD what effect does it have on the job you are going for?
Cutting scars are difficult for people to handle, that is the fact they just are so perhaps alightweight long sleeve shirt for interviews?

You are so ready to bring change into your life, but you sound like you need some support, GP? Counseller? not usre what you have in place.

Hopefully these current feelings will pass, perhaps you could just rest and ten start your battle again. Look after you while this rest happens.

Sending you support and hope in you "you can do it"

Warm regards

Liz

Written by keller, 5. Mar 2008 01:19 PM

Babz,
It is not fair that life keeps handing you challenges. I think it is rude of your new manager not to let you know what had happened - it is only decency to tell you. Maybe with skating and also your little girl that you sponsor, can you talk to the people involved and see if you could a smaller amount until you are back on your feet.
I can understand exactly about not wanting to apply for anymore jobs - the rejection thing cuts deep. It is not right that you are judged by your scars - they are on the outside - it is what is on the inside that counts and your scars don't stop you from doing a great job.
Dont quit Babz, you have come along way with many obstacles in your path - maybe do some volunteer work just to get yourself out and about - If you can stick with the skating, it would be an outlet for you to escape how you are feeling.
You are letting no one down Babz except yourself. You are trying your hardest to get a job - it is the employers who are missing out.
Keep strong, you will get through this, and we are here for you. Take things one little step at a time
Take care and look after yourself.
Lynne

Written by chookie67, 5. Mar 2008 06:17 PM

Babz sweety,

I am so sorry hun. I know how it feels - i don't handle rejection too well either. I am so sorry. (((((((((hugs))))))))

Love, I know you dont want to apply for more jobs cause u are scared you will be rejected. But hun, the more interviews you go for, the more prepared you get and the more they reject you, the more you become stronger. Trust me on this hun. I have been rejected at least 15 times within the last three weeks. It feels horrible ey? But hun, you need the money. you need the money to go skating to help with your depression. you need a job to have a routine to ease the moods. i know its hard, but you gotta try. and hun, i am going through a hard time now but i willhelp you in every way i can. you remmeber that!!

also these are a few suggestions you can do with the scares on your arm. my arm is horrible - scars everywhere. look at this :-

1. wear long sleeves
2. this sounds silly but i do this all the time - put foundation on the scarss. get a foundation that is the same colour as your arm, and apply it. its blady marvelous!! lol
3. tell them that you were cooking, and the vegetable scapper cut you.

i hope this helps hun. i realy feel for you.

love you lots hun

MUAH!

Written by WhiteDove, 5. Mar 2008 07:12 PM

It really sux hunny the way people are so judgemental. Don't give up on the fight for a job. There is one out there with your name on it, I just know it. I have faith in you. The rejection part sux I know but it will only make you stronger babe.

Love, care and support always
Amanda xxxxx

Written by Deleted_User, 5. Mar 2008 08:00 PM

No - you're not crazy. You're an amazing girl. I'm sorry about your job. Yes - it is crushing, and yes, I completely understand struggling with rejection.

Can you apply for jobs and not disclose your bpd? Can you wear clothes to cover the scars? I know it's not easy - but you have what it takes. I strongly, always believe in you.

With love and strength and belief,

Kimberly
xoxo

Written by newlife, 6. Mar 2008 12:12 AM

Nothing about you is crazy except your own perception of yourself. I personally find you to be quite lovely and normal. So pull your head in about being anything other than what I see you as. Don't burst my bubble!

Written by Deleted_User, 6. Mar 2008 07:40 PM

Babz

I lost my job after almost 23 years service so I don't know how long it is going to be before I can try and reenter the workforce. Psychiatrist says not for some time because of all the crap that happened to me at work.

I know it is hard when you are rejected but you can be stronger and cope with it. I hope you go back to applying for jobs. You will get one to suit your experience.

Go Babz!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 6. Mar 2008 08:19 PM