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Written by babz 17. Jan 2008 05:31 PM

Still in hospital, still a basket case, still drugged out of my mind half the time. Mood stabiliser hasn't kicked in yet and so is being increased. I'm so over the whole damn thing. I'm so over fighting.

I have so much rage bottled up inside me, but all I can do is cry. I'm sick of being sick. I'm sick of this s**t. I hate it, I hate me, I hate life.

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Hang in there babz.
Give it some time. It is hard and sometimes takes a long time, but it will get better.

Written by Deleted_User, 17. Jan 2008 05:32 PM

Hang in there this sounds just like me last june and aftr 7 weeks in hospital, new meds and lots of counselling I can say my life is so much beeter tthan it has been

You can do it, let them take charge of everything and sink into the routine that is hospital....you may then surprise yourself

Warm regards for your recovery

Liz


Written by keller, 17. Jan 2008 06:03 PM

Hi Babz,
As Femm said, please hang in there. You are getting the help that you need. Things will take their time to settle down. If you want to cry, just let it flow. Maybe go outside and just scream until you can't scream no more.
Hope things get better for you soon. Thinking of you. Just remember baby steps, and you have taken the biggest one of all and asked for help.
Take care
Lynne

Written by chookie67, 17. Jan 2008 06:26 PM

Babz

You are where you need to be for the help and assistance to get through this black cloud. Have faith and the drugs will work and you will be well enough to come home soon.

Go Babz!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 17. Jan 2008 06:42 PM

Babzy

I REALLY REALLY believe in you. There are lots of us that do. You are gorgeous, warm, intelligent, funny, kind, wise etc. You are going to be alright. You are going to come through the other side of all this shit - I know it.

Sending you heaps of love, faith and strength,

your friend,
Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 18. Jan 2008 02:12 AM

Dear Babz,
Yes, What Kim said - Plus I KNOW you can do this - you can get through this and will be better than ever before - thats the point. You have all my support (as always) and all my empathy hon.
I'm here for you
Biggest Hugs
Av

Written by winterrain, 18. Jan 2008 01:53 PM