NYE and resolutions
A page in the diary "A Day in the Life Of..."
Written by babz 1. Jan 2008 03:35 PM
I'm glad I decided to go to the party last night, even though I didn't really know anyone I had a really good time. Who knew that kiddie pools and water pistols were so much fun for 20+ year olds...
For every kilo I weigh I think I drank about a dollar's worth of alcohol. Despite having lost a lot of weight, that is still a hell of a lot of alcohol, especially given I don't usually drink and the amount of valium the CAT team has had me on lately. Spare me the lectures about drinking and meds, it was totally worth it to feel happy and carefree for a few hours.
Am supposed to go out tonight with WV friends but I don't think I will go. Number of reasons:
1. Killer hangover
2. Wedding rehearsal and dress fittings are tomorrow morning (I don't usually get up until after 12pm as is) so I need to actually be functioning and have had a decent sleep
3. It is an hour each way and in a pub. The thought of even being around alcohol makes me want to chuck
4. Today is the 2 year anniversary of the rape, and if I go it means I will be using public transport in the middle of the night. I wouldn't like doing it usually but would still do it, tonight I don't think I could cope. Also, the whole being around drunken guys in some back alley pub doesn't sit well with me and if something were to go even remotely wrong I would completely go over the edge.
I find it so ironic how the same day that everything starts over and you get a fresh start is the same day I'm reminded of something in the past that I don't think I will ever move on from... That's my deep thought for the day.
I'm sure my friends will understand, they know about today being the anniversary. Plus, who the hell organises a party for New Years Day when everyone still has a hangover from New Years Eve?
I am not one for New Year's Resolutions, I think it is stupid that people wait until a particular date on the calendar to do something they want to do. If they wanted it that bad they wouldn't wait. I am going to make an exception this year, because I am wiping the slate clean.
My resolution is to learn to accept and love who I am.
If anyone feels like commenting with their resolutions I'd be interested to hear them.
Happy New Year to all deppies.