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Written by babz 19. Jun 2008 11:17 PM

As of 3:42pm this afternoon I am a free woman, at least for the semester, and it is with great pleasure that "The Globalization of World Politics" has been relegated to my bookshelf. Mainly because it was a really boring book, but also because it pisses me off how they spell globalisation with a 'z' instead of an 's'. Anyway, I now have officially completed four credit points of my degree - that's an equivalent of one semester. It's only taken me 2.5 years, but I'm stupidly, insanely, joyously proud nonetheless. I'm looking forward to next semester, though I'll see if I'm still saying that when I find out the workload

Not only did I manage to complete two subjects at the same time, which I have never done before, I managed to get through an entire semester without putting myself in ICU. Even better, I managed to get through an entire semester, with good marks, without ending up in hospital at all. That is a first, and again, I am stupidly, insanely, joyously proud. I was so excited when I finished my exam that I wanted to run down the main road screaming, but my uni is in a valley so either way would be uphill, and well, I was too lazy. The thought was there.

I'm looking forward to having some time to myself. I can finally sort out my house and do all the things I've been meaning to do but haven't because I've had to focus on uni stuff. And now I can focus my attention fully on skating without feeling guilty. State championships are in Melbourne in just over five weeks, then the week after we are heading to regional Victoria for a competition and then two weeks after that it is up to Brisbane for nationals. I'm so excited!!!

I am however a bit nervous about how I am going to go with skating after my surgery - I can imagine it will be just a little bit painful having people grab and pull on my arm when I've got an incision from my wrist to my elbow. But I am excited about the surgery too. I feel that it has come at a very symbolic time especially given how I got through a whole lot of shit to complete this semester without resorting to the ways of the past.

I'm in a positive mood, but then again I am high on endorphins, and I'm so utterly exhausted that everything seems to be funny - even the $500 vet bill for my dog. Maybe the surgery is good in that way too - at least I'll get a guaranteed hour or so of sleep!!

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Gotta agree with u Babz, u ARE stupidly insane!
Y?
Lets c if I counted rite...

1- U completed a semester.
2- Uve now completed 4 credit points.
3- U studied 2 subjects @ th same time.
4- U didnt end up in ICU.
5- U got all good marks.
6- U didnt end up

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:00 AM

in hospital @ all.
7- U kept up with skating despite injury & Uni.
8- U qualified 4 state.
9- U moved outta home in2 a place of yr own.
10- U organised surgery.
11- U said goodbye 2 cutting.
12- U coped without resorting 2 ways of th past
13- U celebrated

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:08 AM

yr 21st which u didnt think Ud even reach.
14- U FINALLY realised u dont hav 2 save th world.
15- U kept up with DBT & psych appts.
16- Im straining th poor ol' brain here.
17- U met me (tho dunno if thats good or bad lol)
18- U DIDNT QUIT!!!

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:16 AM

Thats 18, well 17 + 1 debatable absolutely MASSIVE achievements in th past semester- not just 1 or 2 Babz but 18!
& u rite yr "STUPIDLY INSANELY joyously proud"???

You DIPSHIT!

U hav every rite 2b singing from th rooftops 4 all Uve achieved hun!

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:23 AM

Uve surpassed even yr wildest dreams this semester.
U forged ahead even wen u were screaming with internal agony.
SO many times u thort bout quitting but u didnt, u stuck it out come hell or high water.
U buried yr fears- or atleast tried 2- & got on with

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:28 AM

th job @ hand.
U not only didnt resort 2 past bad habits but u said goodbye 2 sum as well!
& with all this shit, u MOVED OUTTA HOME???

& u write yr STUPIDLY INSANELY joyously proud???

Aaaah hellooo???

Uve got EVRY RITE 2 b damn proud babe & there aint

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:34 AM

1 person on this site'd say otherwise!

Yr made of tough stuff Babz, I hope u realise now just how strong u REALLY are?

Always knew u were a brainiac, but hey, I dont call u Madam Babz Extraordinaire 4 nothin!

SOOO proud of u hun, so proud!
Mmmwa
xxx

Written by Gyps, 20. Jun 2008 01:40 AM

Hi babz

Congratulations on all levels.

As to the other challenges I say... "Feel the fear and do it anyway" and lastly...

Enjoy the natural highs of a life well lived and when it subsides again, as it will... remember how you feel right now and know that it can be yours again when your inner stars align. You deserve to feel proud and I'm thrilled to stand in the crowd and cheer. BRAVO!!!

Thanks for sharing... I loved reading your diary.
Nickhy

Written by Alchemy, 20. Jun 2008 02:34 AM

Good for you! Three cheers, you deserve em.
(Hey, when I had my arm cut I couldn't do anything with it for 4 weeks so is this the right time for that?)
Onya Babz!

Written by maple, 20. Jun 2008 08:30 AM

Hey love,

When I read your diary, I cried. Tears of joy. I am so proud of you hun. So proud. You have done so so so well and you should scream out of happiness if you want to.

You made it through all the crap. You completed this semester even when you thought u couldnt a couple weeks back. you have a lot of potential in you hun, so much.

From personal experience, I know how shit hard it is to study and have dep at the same time. But you made it love!!!

((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))

big big hun from me.

enjoy the semester break hun. go and pamper yourself hun.

love you heaps.

love
wd

Written by WhiteDove, 20. Jun 2008 12:11 PM

Legend!
This is so good I am so proud of you. Put those textbooks away and when you come back to them 20 years later, they will be dust laden, cause you never touched them again.

Put a little note in the front inside cover, tell yourself how proud of yourself you are.

Best of all things to you, relax and enjoy the break!



Liz
XXSX

Written by keller, 20. Jun 2008 12:22 PM

Babz

Well done... amazing... celebrations... take time to smell the flowers... as Gyps said ... you have achieved... hope the surgery is minimal and doesn't affect your skating... keep fingers crossed knee keeps working... and the fibro is in remission... be prepared for some pain with the skating schedule...

Woohoo!!! you have done well..

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 20. Jun 2008 03:27 PM

Babz

Good on you for getting through your exams and not going to icu during the semester.

Have a good holiday and do the things you need to around the house.

Go Babz!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 20. Jun 2008 04:01 PM

Hi Babz,
This diary is so uplifting to read. You have been through alot and at last the bad times have started to turn into good times. You have shown people that no matter what life throws at you, you will somehow find the strength to beat it and as well offer friendship and support to others.
I wish you all the best for the future and good luck with your operation and your skating. And also hope that your dog gets better.
Take care of yourself and don't push yourself
Lynne

Written by chookie67, 20. Jun 2008 08:22 PM

hi babz
You have done so well, as you deserved to. I wish you all the very best.
Peter

Written by surfer, 21. Jun 2008 04:19 PM