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Written by keller 28. May 2008 06:17 PM
So I guess things are going OK at present, still have the noise in my head and annoyed at my Drs (specialist) staff as he told me to ring after seven day steroid course if buzzing was still there. Its still there! They said give it a little more time and I say how much more time do you want a day a week a month a year??? They say oh sorry we will check and check they do and come back and say two weeks because you have said its been two weeks on steroids and I said well no….its been a week that was all he prescribed. Oh he never would do that says the staff member, and I said that’s what he did. They continued and said well get the bottle and read it, I said I checked it with the pharmacist and they said if you could just read it out then all will be settled. Fuck…I said I am blind wait and I will get my 10 year old to read it…oh sorry that’s right she says I forgot…yep fair enough. Shit shit shit
So now wait another 2 weeks.
Have to go in for work tomorrow as haven’t been there for 2 weeks, all good on a brand new contract isn’t it?
So apart from the run of the mill frustrations things have been OK. Catching up with some friends on the weekend, going to see the Swannies against the Tigers on Sunday.
Missing DBT this week, chose work over it, I know the facilitators will not be happy with me but I am doing what I want and need to do, my choice.
How am I feeling, a bit empty (lacking connection) a bit angry (frustrated) and a bit OK. I can feel the black dog though at my toes just trying to come back but I am attempting my mindful meditation and it is working to an extent, keeping it all at bay.
That’s all folks
Liz
XXX