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Written by keller 23. May 2008 02:30 PM

Why do I feel better today?

What is it that sends me up and down and up again? I have been at the pits since Monday and yet this morning about 11 am I noticed that the tightness had gone from my chest, my breathing had slowed, I was more aware and I felt physically stronger.

Perhaps it’s a combination, the meds I am taking – steroids, antibiotics, anti dep med including lithium and some serequal to get me sleeping. This seems to be going OK.

I still have the noise in my head, specialist hopes it will disappear or dissipate somewhat over the next 4 – 5 days, if not back to him.

I actually told hubby about what happened in DBT group yesterday and he was intent and focused as we discussed some of it, I spoke about how easy it had been to be in a role play about another group member but when it came to me it was a huge effort to get even a few words out. I told him so I suspect that is a good thing.

Well just catching up that I am on the up and up.

Liz
XXX

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Keller

I am so happy (happy tears) that things are better for you today. Put it down to the meds.

Go Keller!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 23. May 2008 02:46 PM

Hi Liz,

I'm so glad to hear you're starting to feel better, maybe the med's, maybe hormonal... don't question it, just enjoy feeling better for a while.

Thanks for your reply to my post the other day, I have weighed up all the responses and still don't know what to do really, but one thing I do know is that I will NEVER go back to drinking during the week, maybe just a couple of the weekends to let my hair down.

I'm sorry your mother was a serious alcoholic, leaving you with a broken arm for 3 days is just disgusting. I've never been at a point where I can't function or look after my boys, they've only ever seen me drunk once after a party and they thought it was funny. I'd never drink to excess until after they went to bed.

Anyway, just wanted to say i appreciated your comments, I'm glad you're feeling better and I hope your good mood continues.

Luv Karen xxx

Written by fly, 23. May 2008 03:07 PM

Hey Liz,

Glad you are feeling a little better.

In answer to your question of why we go up and down, well my answer for me is my own stupidity, and my ability to not be able to stand up for and protect myself.

Take care

Nouse

Written by Nouse, 23. May 2008 03:26 PM

Ok Liz time 2 bend over-yes u deserve a kick up the bum!

U rite your crap excuses about y your feeling beta but did u stop 4 even a sec 2 think maybe your feeling beta coz of U? Course u bloody didnt!

All the meds in the world wont make things beta, its

Written by Gyps, 23. May 2008 06:39 PM

gotta come from within.

U took a MASSIVE step forward 2day by discussing DBT with hubby & Im SO incredibly proud of u 4 that!

Y do u feel beta?
Well I think u had mentally prepared yourself 4 bad news from the specialist so that u could cope & not fall

Written by Gyps, 23. May 2008 06:41 PM

apart. 10 points 4 that!
Only problem is when the news WASNT what u were expecting, u were unprepared & taken by surprise. U suddenly had a whole new situation 2 deal with PLUS u had 2 cope with the come down from all u had prepared yourself 4.
Its like..

Written by Gyps, 23. May 2008 06:43 PM

your energy & focus was on 1 thing & in a way it was a let down- adrenaline wise, that it didnt eventuate. But coz all your energy was focused on that, u had nothing left 2 cope with what DID occur.

So I think u just needed time 2 process everything. The

Written by Gyps, 23. May 2008 06:45 PM

fight or flight response is a powerful thing & coming down from that can b quite traumatic. Plus there's the drainage, ongoing buzz & further hearing loss 2 process & accept.

All these things take time hun, thats all. U may not have been able 2 share in

Written by Gyps, 23. May 2008 06:47 PM

DBT but u still participated & gained alot from the experience.

If discussing it with hubby was a 1st then it means u have reached a new level in your recovery Liz & thats something 2 b damn proud of. & thats not meds Liz, its YOU!
Love u
Mmmwa
xxx

Written by Gyps, 23. May 2008 06:49 PM

Liz

It can be just mood swinging... but it is more likely what Ms Gyps said... though meds help a bit too...

I am glad it has lifred ... take time to enjoy the feeling...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 23. May 2008 10:35 PM

Keller for what ever reasonyou feel ok today just enjoy the day sure there will be good and bad days but look at your achievements.The onething we all have is time,so enjoy these new feelings.TC

Written by Deleted_User, 24. May 2008 12:37 PM

Hi Liz,

I just wanted to pop in and let you know that I appreciate your comments to my diary entries and would like to continue hearing from you.

I also want to assure you that I will never go back down the path I was on before and I'm confident I can handle the situation.

It's through comments like yours that I've learnt that I have to be extremely careful and have now decided that I will not have anymore now until at least next weekend at the earliest and I will still moderate the amount. Before my only aim was to get drunk, last night it tasted a bit yucky after 8 weeks and I wondered what I used to see in it so much. So I think my head space has changed a lot in the 2 months.

Anyway, I'm not trying to justify myself, I just wanted to pop in and let you know I appreciate your support and would love for it to continue.

Warmest wishes,

Karen xxx

Written by fly, 24. May 2008 04:22 PM

Keller

I thank you for your comments and hope we are able to put things behind us. Reading your diaries have had me in tears all the time - happy and sad tears and I am glad you have not deleted my entries.

Thanks for your support and kind words.

Go Keller!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 24. May 2008 07:45 PM

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