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Written by keller 21. May 2008 06:38 PM

I have struggled so deeply today. I am still unwell in all regards. This is all I could do to realease my thoughts, and tomorrow at DBT I am shit scared...

Life goes on …
Reluctance for living
But trying to be strong

Life goes on …
Searing pain in my body and mind
I try to do what I can outside to be kind

But life goes on …
Evidence of existence a mark in the world
The existence of me unfurled

But life goes on …
Struggle deeply with the worth of my life
Choosing between the drug or the knife

Still life goes on …
And I struggle completely to hold ground on this earth
To hold the small hands of the boys I have birthed

Still life goes on …
And I wish and I wish I could just let you all in
To know what I don’t know what is truly within

And
Still
Life goes on

Thanks for the support i need it

Liz
XXX

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Comments from the community:

Liz

Thank you for your comments - the struggle for staying present in this world continues endlessly... your poem said so much... I felt your pain link with mine and swirl out connecting all of us together...

DBT may challenge you ... do as much as you can and no more... make sure they do not push you too far... remember they are there to HELP YOU... not you help them...

Take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 21. May 2008 06:55 PM

Keller

I was in tears again and can feel for you. I have had enough of what I am dealing with. Stay strong and I hope tomorrow is better for you.

Go Keller!!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 21. May 2008 07:31 PM

Hi Liz,

Yes, life goes on regardless of what we are feeling on the inside, which is such a struggle at times. I know my children are the only reason I continue to fight the fight and go on.

Good luck with the DBT tomorrow, steer it in the direction you wish to take it to some extent.

I missed you in chat this afternoon by 1 minute - can you believe that. You logged off at 4.24 and I logged on at 4.25, what a pity, I enjoy chatting with you Liz.

Warmest wishes,

Karen xxx

Written by fly, 21. May 2008 08:22 PM

Not happy jan...
Havent had antideps since sat coz I ran out & had no money 2 get more...
Been crook as with withdrawal 2day, heart racing, head spinning, vomiting...
Then I read your poem that sent my pulse sky high...
Coulda warned me hun...
Love u
xxx

Written by Gyps, 21. May 2008 10:49 PM

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