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Liz
that is good... tells me that therapy is ambiguous for you... do you find after the session you do not know what has just been said... is it for me a reason to live? ... do you feel not listened to? ... words

that is my take on your poem... sometimes i wonder if i am solving the problem or making a new one...

take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 18. Apr 2008 09:02 PM

Keller

Sorry therapy is making you feel this way. You should be coming out of each session feeling positive/better but as Cate points out, it is hard work for you and you are not getting well.

Take the issue up with the psych to discuss it with them so they understand how you are feeling about your therapy.

Go Keller!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 18. Apr 2008 09:19 PM

Hey Liz,

I feel what you are saying, it is what i feel deep down.

Don't know how to help you as i don't know how to help myself, but i am thinking of you if that is any help.

Take care Liz and find someone you feel comfortable talking to, this may help.

Luv Nouse

Written by Nouse, 18. Apr 2008 10:09 PM

feelings.....

you dont understand them so you cant describe them... yet you feel compelled to try, to make your psych happy...


you know hun,
you might go out to dinner... say a group of 10 people you havent met before....
(yeah okay HIGHLY unlikely its gonna happen but just work with me here please mmmwa xxx)
and out of that group there may be -

1 you like to joke and have fun with...
1 you feel a connection with and are able to talk freely to....
a few you may think are just okay...
a few you may not be too sure about...
1 you feel uncomfortable around...
and 1 you may dislike...

Are you going to go out to lunch with the few you think are just ok? Maybe
What about the few you arent sure about? Hmmmmmm probably not.
The one that you feel uncomfortable around? No
The one you dislike? Definitely not!

You have a right as an individual to decide who you socialise with, yet for some reason people dont think they have that same right when it comes to their medical treatment...

Just because you get referred to a particular medico, specialist or psych DOESNT mean you have to continue seeing them.

Its paramount that your treating medico/psych is someone that you -
1 - feel comfortable with.
2 - can relax around.
3 - feel at ease with.
4 - feel has an understanding of you and how you tick.
5 - feel is able to get you to open up.
6 - feel you can trust with your innermost thoughts.
7 - feel you are making progress with.
(yeah LOTS of "feelings" there...)

People dont connect for all sorts of reasons, and its not about "failure" on either part.

People can have -
- different values.
- different beliefs.
- different ways of doing things.
- different personalities.

Perhaps the way your therapist works ISNT the ideal way for you to get in tune with your inner being...

Perhaps your therapist is too much of a softy and you need someone firmer (or vice versa)...

Perhaps there is some elusive characteristic or personality trait about your therapist that stirs up a sense of uneasiness from the past...


My point in all of this is that you have expressed, either directly or indirectly, for a while now, a sense of mistrust and uneasiness with your therapist... and unfortunately you will be unable to reach your full potential whilst you have those feelings.

So its something you perhaps need to think on. You can maybe discuss it with your therapist and try to work out what the issue is... or perhaps its time to start seeing someone else....

But just because you were referred to a particular therapist DOESNT mean that it is the right therapist FOR YOU!

love you Liz
xxx

PS: I think it was Babz, actually yeah pretty sure she changed psych's coz she wasnt happy with the one she had and when he went away he had someone take over her case for him. Babz felt sooooo much more comfortable with the new psych that she transferred over to him.

Maybe have a chat to her about it? Babz is pretty cool, Ive met her and she's just as whacky as me! lol
xxx

Oh and hey, I also think your fundamentally scared of discussing your innermost thoughts and feelings as then cluey people will understand you when you dont even understand yourself ... "If I speak this they will know
What I don’t know..."

That says your scared of being hurt again and you are feeling very very vulnerable..... time to change therapists hun...

Written by Gyps, 19. Apr 2008 12:28 AM

hey did Survivor end up catching up with you?
I was chatting to her for ages one night and while she's only JUST turned 20, she has an awful lot of things in common with you, she also uses the JAWS program, hers is from a different cause tho.....

I reckon you two would be good for eachother coz you both will be going through alot of the same stuff.

When I was tellin her bout you and how totally awesome you are, she was VERY keen to get in touch with you.

smile babe
xxx

Written by Gyps, 19. Apr 2008 12:42 AM

Hi Darl.
I agree with Gyps on this one...I also think it may be wise to change therapists...it is up to you... but you must be totally comfortable with your therapist on all levels. By what you have written, this does not seem to be the case.
Love & Support Always,
Valerie x0x

Written by Deleted_User, 19. Apr 2008 12:49 AM