I made a friend today
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Written by keller 11. Mar 2008 03:54 PM
Today I was traveling into town and waiting on the station for my train when a lady with a strong Irish accent says “Hi Liz. Haven’t seen you for ages, how are you” and I found it was one of the grandmas from my sons school Amy. Amy is 78.
She says to me, “Oh dear your eyesight has got so much worse hasn’t it?” and I said yes nearly all gone.
And we chatted the 10 minute wait and the 20 minute trip to town. Then she asked me if I knew where a landmark was near town hall and I said yes I am going near there myself. So here is me leading the way, cane in hand and Amy saying I'm right behind you I'm right here. And I took her to the place she needed to go, she commented (and it was there to be said) it’s like the blind leading the blind, we both laughed like schoolgirls.
And then as we were parting company she said to me that I had taken ten years off her age today, I asked her why and she said “the few moments we had spent were so immeasurably pleasurable and that it was so nice that you were able to help me”.
I kissed her on the cheek and wished her well and went about my task.
I felt exhilarated because I had been able to help someone, and I feel like it’s been so long since I have been able to do that.
I had my psychologist’s appointment and while still hard work it was more illuminating today. I know for so long she has been telling me that in order to feel confident about asking for help or speaking my emotional needs I have needed to see proof that I will be OK and that it will be alright to ask for what I need or accept help. I know these things cognitively and practically but not on an emotional level.
Today I helped someone and I remember how worthwhile that made me feel, maybe I will let someone help me, I have proof that it is OK.
I made a friend today and I learnt a lesson today.
My little world is a bit better.