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Written by keller 30. Jan 2008 03:24 PM

I wish I could say I was all well or all recovered but I am not all the way there yet and I grow at the time it takes to recover from this illness that has been with me for 2 years.

I am doing the things I need to do, meds, group and therapy adn Psychiatrist
I have all the support I could ever wnat, kids, hubby, great friends
But still I feel a hole i me, that I will never again feel right
I have been dismantled and am rebuilding I think my psychologist would say, I have finally seen what is important and am reaching for it. But it is so hard, so very hard.

Its a battle to live this life and be sane and be able to share my emotions and not avoid talking about the true things iside my head

Its just hard, but Im OK

Liz

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Keller

I am glad things are going ok for you and that you have all the necessary support networks.

We are as my psychologist says, all works in progress - to get us better/to a stage where we are well enough to cope with life. Follow what your support network say you should do and hopefully the hole you feel that exists will close for you.

Go Keller!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 30. Jan 2008 04:43 PM

Keller, I feel the same way - it's so hard especially when you do all the right things - anything just to be well again! The feeling you describe of being dismantled is spot-on!What's that song by Faith No More?
...Falling to pieces..
...Somebody put me together..
GOD HOW I WISH!!!
Anyway I hope we can feel a little better real soon.
Cheyne x

Written by hippiechick, 31. Jan 2008 01:15 AM

Sending you love Liz. I'm here for you.

Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 1. Feb 2008 11:58 AM

I have not been here for a while, with all the fighting and bitching going on, and refuse to participate in chat but do occasionally read diarys, although only selective ones

Please Liz, know I am thinking of you, and hoping for the best for both you and your family
Recovery takes time, i know, I have been "recovering" for 40 years, and that hole you feel will once again be filled not with emptyness and darkness, but with light and happiness
It is hard, that I certainly know
But, I also know you have both the determination and courage to do it
Take care my friend...

Written by Alan5, 5. Feb 2008 05:22 AM

Hi Keller

First let me apolagise for last night. My intention was not to encourage but to diswade the rouge.

I have have just finished reading this diary entry and can assure you that amny of the struggles you are facing in some way are probably quite similar to what I am going through.

It does feel tlike we have been dismantled and then rebuilt into a better and hopfully new improved us.

My counseller keeps saying to me that people like us are the lucky ones because we have taken the oprotunity to try and fix the things that are wrong in our lives and to rebuild our lives for the better.

Most of the population go through life living in the dream that we have wolen up from.

I do hope that we can put last night 6 - 02 - 08 behindus and work together and support each other and the others that need help on this site.

Bassman

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