I am back fighting fit and strong!
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Written by keller 20. Nov 2007 04:23 PM
Hello friends, just a note to let you know i am back from my globetrotting ventures~!
We arrived home over the weekend tired and a little dazed from a change in tempretures (Edingburg in Scotland max of minus 3 to Bangkok 34 and home to Sydney about 30 as well. It messes you up a bit, but my jet log is resolved and I am feelimg pretty good.
Our trip had many practicle hassels, I bumped my head so many times and fell down or crashed into things so often that it was like an ongoing parade of panadol, bandaids and medistrips (stiches). Anyway what did i expect being a blind traveller in some pretty remote spots.
But I can seriously not complianing as the value of the trip to me is far more that things i saw(heard or had described) food and wine I ate (mmm dont need to read any label to enjoy French wine)the enjoyment my husband had at Normandy .. to my this time wirth my family and with myself was a gift, a bouncing platform back to life, back to finding me, I have been so lost and now I am seeing as it were the light.
I saw the psychiatrist nad the psychologist today adn for the first time ever I walked out of the psychologists rooms in control, happy to be going on with the things we agreed upon, feeliong like I am in a calmer place.
I did the DAS (depression anxiety stress scale) test adn for the first time in 14 months my score was low on all counts, in fact my score on depression went from 40 (the maximum I think) to 18, I answered very honestly and reviewed the last month including the coming home few days!
I now can wait another month before I see him again and have pushed the psychologist out to fortnightly appointments.
I will not be spending much time on depnet but will be in contact with those who i have maintained contact with over the last few months.
I hope you are all the best that you can be today and please take something from this, its not about the overseas holiday, its about making a break in the pattern adn cyle of depression that I feel has assited me, better than hospital and better than drugs...they just kept me alive til i got to this point.
Best to you all
Liz xxxx