a good start
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Written by keller 26. Sep 2007 02:46 PM
during my coffee with a friend this morning I told him some of what I had been talking about in therapy sessions and that I needed to practice talking more about myself. He was incredibly supportive and as such asked me some specific things which made it easier for me to talk about myself. I volunteered later in the conversation (when he wasn’t prompting me) that things had been challenging with hubby and I switching our roles to the more traditional male breadwinner and how that was for me. And I also explained to the group (there were five of us at the end) that I was a little scared about traveling and what it would be like for me this time with diminished eyesight.
What I noticed is how my language changed, it slowed right down and was much less coherent and all the time I had this level of anxiety (fear). I have just rung hubby and told him that I had progressed a little further and that things were OK and he was proud of me. I hope to keep all this is the forefront of my mind as we travel and really use the time to connect with the kids and with hubby.
It’s all good really, cause I did what I set out to do and no one was shocked or horrified, they were supportive and encouraging. It will be nice to work on this and loose some of the fear.
For now though it’s a good start and I feel positive.
Not sure if it’s the drugs or therapy or the trip but things are nice in my world right now and its been a long time since I could say that honestly.
Im offf to pack !
Liz