i think i get it
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Written by keller 13. Sep 2007 05:07 PM
Had another session witht he psychologist today adn I finally think i am beginning to understand - it is like i have left people out of really knowing me,the whole me which is made up all the good and the bad and the unfortunate.
I had never wanted to share many of my expereces because i had thought it made me not a nice eprson, that i would be judged fro the thngs that happened to me. But no. The things that happened to me were just that they HAPPENED TO ME they were not of my own doing, the dirtly messy horrid memories ofmy youth make my character, they are part of me.
Not sure if i am just an idiot or what but realising some of this today has made life a little easier.
I have my weekend away woth three friends this weekend and whilst i am anxious as to if and what and how i should share myself, not just the fluffy or interesting opinions i may have but the essence the real me, i think i see the need to talk more freely. One of my friends whio is coming i have knowm for 22 years adn yet she knows little of me, time may be right to redress some of this if and when it comes up and is appropriate
I am learning and growing
Best wishes all
Liz