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Written by keller 11. Sep 2007 05:23 PM

I have been writig the story of my childhood and it has been a painful excercise. My psychologist reads my daily installments and then writes back and asks me some probing questions, its hard work but i see the value in owning my past and then sharing it.
At 44 years of age I have never said out loud many of the thigs I am writign down and therefore have not had the practice of telling people how i feel and what my needs are.
The sentance "I feel...." has never really left my mouth, i have no words for emotions and feelings they dont exist in my vocab, things are either good or bad and that is the sum of it.
This weekend I go away with three girlfrinends wine tasting so i hope i am OK for that...will just have to see I guess.
Two weeks til we go to Europe and I am hoping i can just shake off some of these feelings and go with the flow.
I hope.

best to all

Lis

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Keller

I am so glad that the writing down your life is helping you. You can now start using I feel statements which I think your psychologist would be happy to know. It is part of CBT techniques that some pscyhologists practise. You have a great psychologist to reply to your emails as quickly as you get them. Keep working with your psychologist and I am sure your weekend away with the girls and your trip to Europe will be fine.

Go Keller!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 11. Sep 2007 05:55 PM

i hope for you as well
i also wrote about me as a child, it was damn hard...still is..
all my best to you

Written by Deleted_User, 11. Sep 2007 06:08 PM

Hey Liz

I think the writing about your childhood will actually prove to be very healing.

My psychiatrist got me to write down all the bad things that had happened to me and to make the distinction between sadness and anger....this helped her get to know me and my issues, identify my unhealthy/dysfunctional thinking patterns/belief systems, and for me, it was a very effective way of expressing all my pain - so it got it out of me and onto the table...and, very importantly it made me realise that I wasn't just sad and feeling like a victim, but that I was actually bloody angry - and when the anger was woken up in me it built up into a red hot tunnel of rage which helped energise me and motivate me to recover.

I am sure that you are finding lots of these things that your psych is getting you to do challenging - but I feel they are actually very good for you, and I feel that you are in very good hands Liz!!

I really hope you have a lovely time with your 3 girlfriends this weekend - I think the companionship will do you the world of good - I envy you actually as I'm feeling a bit isolated at the moment and would love to be doing something like that.

Re your Europe trip - Liz - I think you'll find that once you're all on your adventure you will shake off the feelings....I think one of our problems is that we are afraid of our own feelings...and so maybe we pre-empt them sometimes....what do you think of that concept?

I will still be here in Dubai in 2 weeks - so if you're stopping through and would like to catch up at all send me an email.

Lots of love

Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 11. Sep 2007 09:33 PM

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