A poem and then some
A page in the diary ""
Written by itsonlyme 30. Oct 2007 09:26 PM
Feeling the darkness
I can't explain
Looking for hope with no gain
submerged faith, and I still believe.
What lies ahead,who only knows
my life is pain that only slows
as I get older
I understand.
That what is my path is also in my hand.
My body is tired and my mind numb
As I cry with my heart
I look for the light
I look for softness from a kind soul
To help me on my knees
And climb out of this emotional hole.
I wrote this some time ago, but up and down I go, like a yoyo and that journey seems to come around all to often. My partner is giving me some serious grief and dishing out some hurtful comments. I don't feel like my home is my home, I have been having horrible nightmares.I just feel like screaming. I have been sleeping on the lounge for day's now. Every morning now I wake up and feel so tense and tight, stressed out. I can't deal with this anymore. I have to go to work and be ok, and pretend to my children that all is good. I am miserable. Its no wonder quite frequently I want to drink alcohol and eat relaxants like yum fruity lollies, at least then I get some decent sleep.