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Written by itsonlyme 30. Aug 2006 03:27 AM

I did the whole confontational thing with him...he denied it and said I was imagining things..its happened before and forgave him. Am i going crazy and having awful dreams that make me worse and highly strung? dont know. The seed it planted.Im not sure if its normal to feel like: OCD (like a clean freak) and D and over hypo active, perdantic person. I spent the night with my sister, which was nice, my older one who is not "all about me, look at what I have ". My older sister is loving and nice. I hate my work.. yes yes I know I should be grateful for having a job... but there all backstabbing people..it really really hurts me..I have to watch my back and cover all basis.Its draining. I feel like walking out or running to the toilets and crying. I took the fall for something today and had nothing to do with it. But I couldnt say anything. I just sought of looked at the computer all day and did stuff all.

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hugz sweety. it is so hard life that is. it throws us cards we dont want to play.

atm i am very much like that.

i always said a person, once a player always a player but i proved myself wrong so now i dont beive it. maybe its just with your dep wich i will addmit i have paranoid thoughts alot of my hubby with other girls. so lets say it that. (and we will hope it too)

relationships are so hard. its not a get together and live happily ever after it is a constant "battle" where we have to in a sence keep the other party interested. and with dep we do become a bit "selfish" in a way. we can't feel good about ourselvres and dont want to feel like this so why should we feel anything to anyone else. I hate it so much. some days i just want to pack it all in and run away. last time i did go through with it i ended up in swan mental health unit.

I'm not sure if i had said this to you bvefore, if i have sorry. but my memory is pathetic atm. hubby and i sit for an hour most nights and talk about me and how i am feeling. this helps him understand where i am at and now he can tell by face/body laguage how i am and if i need extra tlc or to be left alone. its working well atm but he wont leave me alone sometimes when i really need to be but i dont blame him he is scared of what i will do.

try this and see what happens, but explain to him that you are paranoid aswell. things might get better. i cant promis anything coz i dont know you and your partner at all. :)

Good luck though and i hope that you to can get closer with this and be more together.

Hugz and good luck with work, i only look after my two kids so i dont know what its like to work. :(

Hugz
Libby

Written by Deleted_User, 30. Aug 2006 03:17 PM

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