crying in the darkness
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Written by itsonlyme 24. Aug 2006 11:35 PM
Today I was so complacent. Work was hard, tiring. I think my partner is having an affair, with one of his friends girlfriends. Too many weird things. He says you can talk to me, yeh right. I feel stuck. And hurt. I want to drink myself to sleep. I havent even cooked dinner for the girl.I have no energy. I have emptiness and a my mind is like an abyss of never ending negativity. I feel sick. I dont have a headache,thank goodness.
I just want to freak out and care and yell and scream and cry and rant like a person that cares. but all i can do is hide my pain.
i just want to cry and cry, and then go to sleep, and not dream.
Im feel very hurt, holding my tears back so the girls dont see.