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Written by itsonlyme 24. Aug 2006 11:35 PM

Today I was so complacent. Work was hard, tiring. I think my partner is having an affair, with one of his friends girlfriends. Too many weird things. He says you can talk to me, yeh right. I feel stuck. And hurt. I want to drink myself to sleep. I havent even cooked dinner for the girl.I have no energy. I have emptiness and a my mind is like an abyss of never ending negativity. I feel sick. I dont have a headache,thank goodness.

I just want to freak out and care and yell and scream and cry and rant like a person that cares. but all i can do is hide my pain.

i just want to cry and cry, and then go to sleep, and not dream.

Im feel very hurt, holding my tears back so the girls dont see.

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I hope you are wrong about the affair. Try to get clarity on that before it takes you over.
Regards.

Written by Deleted_User, 25. Aug 2006 11:01 AM

hey,

I just wanted to offer you support at this time, I dont know what to say that will make you feel any better at the moment except I do feel your pain. In time it will pass, hard to beleive I know, but true all the same.

Just know that your not alone!!

Senging you a cuddle and a warm smile

Lost

Written by Lost_Is_Me, 26. Aug 2006 06:43 PM

hugz matey. its so hard having dep and being in a realationship. last week my hubby was chatting to a chick on the net and she sent him all these pics of her naked and having sex. it really upset me. i am his first and only gf. and he has a extreemly high sex drive. i personally think he is a sex-a-holic. i ended up yelling and screaming at him. i made him cry. and he told me that this girl wasnt interested in him. she was Bi and wanted another girl. sorry but gross. i dont need shit like that on my pc. confront his. tell him before he answers that you need the truth and no lies. tell him that if there is a problem you will work it out. it might be that he confided in this girl about his feelings and she played on it. get every answer posible and make your mind up on it then. please dont jump to conclusions as it does hurt them and if they think you dont trust them things get worse. i hope its just your dep playing with your emotions. it does it to mee all the time. if a chick looks sideways at my hubby i get so jealouse. i have a problem with it and i am trying to find away to deal with it better.

take care sweety and im here anytime you need a chat.
hugz
Libby

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Aug 2006 06:56 PM