Work and Chris
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Written by Christine24 1. Apr 2007 12:23 AM
My new job is going brilliantly. I am loving it. The people I work with are so wonderful and my job is so awesome. I love it.
Chris on the other hand is not working which I really don't mind. But the one thing that pisses me right off is the fact that he doesn't lift a finger to help me with the house work. For the past week everything was left for me to do when I got home from work. I had to work today and was expected to clean as usual. I'm working tomorrow as well and as today I will have to clean tomorrow as well. He did something tonight that I swear I wanted to hit him for. I was sitting on the couch and put a movie on when he got in the shower, I was enjoying it until he came out of his shower. He asked me to clean and told me to get up so he can watch something and lay down on the couch. I swear it's like he does not give a shit about me. Just before I was ironing and he went to sleep while I had the ironing I just did on the bed, he didn't even move it. Last night I felt like ice cream so I asked him for some because he was getting a drink. He said no and asked me to get it instead so I did, I felt bad so I put him some too. Working 2 jobs (working 7 days this week) is hard enough without having to do everything else too. Why doesn't he help me, just one thing would be nice.
I rang to talk to my mum Thursday night and she didn't want to talk to me as usual. I said I loved her and I got an "ok" back and she hung up in my face as usual. I haven't seen my family in a year which is killing me beyond anything.
I wish someone could love me for me. I swear I don't have anyone to talk to. My friends are too busy, my family don't talk to me.
If anyone out there will give me the chance to be loved and give me the time of day, I will love you back. I just need friends and family that will never turn their back on me. I just wish that I'd stop crying for one night.
I feel so alone