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I think my mask is failing me..

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Written by JoanneC84 30. May 2008 02:13 AM

I guess I just got lost
Being someone else
I tried to kill the pain
Nothin ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hoping to come back around
To find myself someday

Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Just let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Would you let me be myself

This week has been a massive rollercoaster of emotion,thoughts and actions. I'm just so glad the week is coming to an end and my trip to Lynne's is only a few more sleeps away..

I know I've taken a big slide the past few weeks and I just don't have the energy to hide it anymore..I'm sick of wearing a mask at home,at work and in every other aspect of my life.I've decided that if people can't accept me for me,well stuff them! I didn't choose to get mental illness,I didn't ask for this to happen..It choose me and the way I deal with it and live with it is my choice..

Jo x

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Comments from the community:

Hi Jo
If people don't like u for being yourself thats their problem not yours, it's important to learn to be the true you, don't live your life being who others want you to be, trust me it's not worth it u only end up lost and confused not knowing who u truly are.
Your a beautiful, sweet careing person jo.
Take care Jo, u know how to contact me if u want or need to.

(((((((((((((((((((Jo))))))))))))))))

B1

Written by bananas, 30. May 2008 07:48 AM

Jo

B1 is so right - if people don't like you for who you are, they are not worth it. Just think of the two weeks you are going to have in Qld and enjoy your time with Lynne and her family.

Go Jo!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 30. May 2008 03:21 PM

Jo

I think we all wear masks because we want to hide our illness/s from people. Forget the mask when you are at Lynne's and be yourself so Lynne and her family can get to know you as the real Jo.

Ronda

Written by studying1, 30. May 2008 04:06 PM

Hi Joanne, I'm so proud of you and believe me you do shine if people don't except you for who you are then a tuff luck . your a wonderful persn with good morals and you took the words out of my mouth you didnt choose depression it chose you and remember it dosn't discriminate so to those who judge us watch out.Joanne i hope you have a wonderful time in QLD with chookie Let your hair down and have a ball. Take care & keep smiling lots of love Belladonna xox

Written by belladonna64, 31. May 2008 11:49 AM

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