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Stepping over the edge on my own..

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Written by JoanneC84 26. Nov 2007 01:32 PM

Today was the last of my therapy sessions...My psychologist said that I have come a long way in the last 12 months,which I know that I have..Its been 20 weeks since my last self harm incident which was a major reason behind why I started all the therapy again..I have been having regular weekly or fortnightly sessions,attended a good mood group,a self esteem group and have been taking an active role in my recovery.

Although I am not 'cured',still depressed and suffering from anxiety,my psych felt that it was time I tried to do this on my own.He feels that I have learnt the necessary skills to move forward and be able to cope and deal with my depression and anxiety..

I agree with him to some extent but am still terrified of a relapse..He said that I can always call if I have to.

I have had a few bad days lately,where nothing I do lifts my mood..But I have learnt that no matter what I do,those days will happen,and I just have to remember how to make my way through it.

I scored 64 on the deptest today..The lowest ever score that I have..The last time I got that score was about 6 months ago.. My GP has prescribed my endep to help with the anxiety.. So hopefully that helps out..

So for now,I'll just have to keep writing and helping myself through this..Cos I am now on my own,just like before..

Jo

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Comments from the community:

Hi Jo

You're not on your own. You have us.

20 weeks! Yay!

Love

Jenny

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Nov 2007 01:46 PM

Thank you Jenny..Your support means the world to me!
Jo xo

Written by JoanneC84, 26. Nov 2007 01:47 PM

Hi Joanne

Well done, and good that you see that you have come a long way!
Keep up the good work and attending groups, that all helps, and try to keep positive, everyone ha bad days even people without dep.
Keep it up, and look forward!!!

(((huggzz))

Aljay

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Nov 2007 02:22 PM

Well done hon. HUGS
A

Written by winterrain, 26. Nov 2007 03:17 PM

aw jo hun you're never alone, i know it feels like that, but just keep all ur friends in ur head and remember we are all with you in spirit. (ur twinnie is always with u too, big big warm hugs)

Written by kia, 26. Nov 2007 04:12 PM

Jo

Jenny is right - we are all here for you. 20 weeks is a great record. Wish I get over one day. You always can see you psychologist next year if things are not going well for you - don't forget that - 12 visits paid by medicare. It is good your psychologist wants you to try by yourself. Good luck.

Go Jo!!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 26. Nov 2007 05:12 PM

Thank you everyone for your comments..Just to note that by saying that I'm alone,I don't mean by loosing everyone here or friends that I have.. I mean by being alone without my psychologist..
Thanks.Just thought I'd add that bit in
Jo

Written by JoanneC84, 26. Nov 2007 05:57 PM

Hi Jo,
What a great effort you have put in. You have come along way being able to not self harm and being able to help yourself.
Just remember that as long as the good days outweigh the bad days, you are a winner.
Great news on the deptest.
Just take one day at a time.
Lynne

Written by chookie67, 26. Nov 2007 06:23 PM

Dear Jo,
Congratulations, we all knew you could do it...20 weeks is a wonderful effort, I am so proud of you.
Sending you big hugs & heaps of support,
Love Valerie x0x

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Nov 2007 07:17 PM

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