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..Who am I?I'm alone,scared and useless..It's ME!!

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Written by JoanneC84 3. Sep 2007 02:18 AM

I'm standing in the middle of a crowded room-body shaking,heart thumping,sweat beads on my forehead.. I begin to scream,shouting out loud,crying and falling apart.. Everyone continues going about their 'thing',Nobody even looks up to see where the noise is coming from..Nobody cares...

My life is falling apart,my walls are closing in..I'm drowning in my tears..I'm drowning in a crimson sea...

I'm struggling to keep my head above water at the moment...I'm more alone than ever,so empty...so useless..so utterly useless...I'm a failure..I am worthless..I am afraid..I am me...

I have lost the one person who made me feel whole..The one person that I cared about more than my own life..The one person that accepted me for me,despite my many flaws..The one person that brought life back into me..I am nothing anymore..I am a body without a soul..I am worthless..I am a failure..
I have failed them.I have failed me..

Jo x

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Comments from the community:

Jo,
Whats happened sweetie?
I don't know what to say but I'm thinking about you and sending you as much positive energy as I can muster...
Big Hugs
Avril
ps - I hear you and i care.

Written by winterrain, 3. Sep 2007 02:33 AM

we share many similarities you and me... you need to learn constructive self harm...
hang in there sweetie
xxx

Written by Deleted_User, 3. Sep 2007 02:56 AM

oooh honey, big hugs... I wish I could help you!

Written by babz, 3. Sep 2007 03:32 AM

Hi Jo..I understand where you are coming from.Been there and still are there..We may as well be invisable.Wish i can help you..Take care.

Written by calmer, 3. Sep 2007 12:27 PM

Hey Jo,

Your not a failure and your definitely not worthless, people like you are so hard to find, please don't let this rob you again and again call me if you need me.

Love you lots
Donna
xox

Written by super_sad, 3. Sep 2007 03:44 PM

Jo

You are none of these things. You are a supportive, helpful person and if this person doesn't see you for this then it is their loss. I hope it is not the person I think it is because they need you now.

Go Jo!!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 3. Sep 2007 04:55 PM

is there somewhere you can go? a special place where you feel like u r "home"? i found my happy-place today... i walked down to the highway and sat on the side of the road singing to myself. In any case,
we care about you here. see? u have seven comments including myn :) u are worthwhile to us and we want to see you live ur best life. take care :)

Written by Deleted_User, 3. Sep 2007 06:16 PM

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