For those that 'care',its been a while but I'm back..
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 21. Aug 2007 12:41 AM
Its been almost 3 weeks since I've bothered to sit down and write in here..So much has happened in 3 weeks..Some stuff is worth writing about,other stuff is better to be left unsaid,other stuff I would prefer to wish never happened..
I don't know what to put down first,I don't know where to begin..What do I include?What do I delete?
For so long,I wrote in here daily,it was my outlet;my chance to release my thoughts..It was as if by hitting 'save entry' my burdens seemed lighter,my head less likely to explode..
But now,I don't know what is going on in my head to even begin to know what to start writing or understand my thoughts and feelings enough to put them into words..
I think I should return back to writing in here daily..I need some kind of routine,some kind of outlet,a place to vent rather than taking it out on myself..
I'm feeling down at the moment.I don't know if its because my physical illness is getting to me,or if its other things..I'm tredding water,trying to stay afloat..
I've just realised that this entry has been about nothing..perhaps thats what I am too..Nothing..Just words that are thrown together,not too meaningful..Just me..Just here..Just holding on..
Who knows..Who knows what tomorrow will bring..who knows if I will wake..Each day is different for a bloody good reason,otherwise we'd complain of boredom..
take care deppies..its good to be home..
Jo xo