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Darkness has a way of finding me,no matter where I go..

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Written by JoanneC84 31. Jul 2007 11:30 PM

I feel really down at the moment.I don't know why and I don't how long this is going to last.. It has found me again..
My psychologist and I have set a mission;to combat my self harming urges and behaviour once and for all... And sharing that mission with me is Stace.. Stacey is my rock,my one true friend that has stuck by me no matter what..Shes the one person that is there to support me regardless of whats happening in her own life.. I know that I have a chance of getting through this cos I have her..Stace,don't know what I'd do without you hun.. Its gunna be a long,scary and teary road and I am so grateful that you will be there with me every step..

I have been accepted into the disabilities support program at uni..Went through the application process yesterday..The disabilities advisor is now going to devise an academic integration plan so that going back into study for me will be as painfree as possible..the plan will outline the options of negotiating extensions if required,only having afternoon exams due to my meds making me drowsy in the morning and a few other things..Classes start back on thursday...Gunna be a bumpy ride!

Right now,I feel like I'm tredding water..Barely staying above the water level..I don't know why..All I know is that I don't like it and I want to feel something better than this..

Jo xo

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Jo,

You have every chance in the world of getting through this. Not because of me or anybody else, apart from you! You have it in you to do this, and when you need support along the way I will be there.
I'm so glad you are tackling your harming issues cos I know that is a big issue for you. And you can do it.
You just have to believe in you, and I think after what we've been talking about tonight you have more perspective on what matters most to you.
Whatevers going on in your life, is going on in my life too ok. Cos you are IN my life now, you are part of my life. Regardless of what's going on with me ok.
Take care of you, hang in there, and just remember I'm only a phone call away, and on the weekend you will be here so I'm not far.
Love ya.
Stace xxx

Written by Deleted_User, 31. Jul 2007 11:48 PM

Jo

You and Stace are lucky to have found each other. Keep supporting one another and you will both beat this darkness. Would love to know your plan about the self harming - mine is getting worse.

Great news about uni - what is it about depnet that everyone seems to be studying something be it school or uni - maybe that is the unifying ingredient to our depression - study!!! lol!!! Hun, don't over do it and enrol in too many subjects. Believe me as I told Geo and he confirmed in a diary entry, you won't know what's hit you once you start. You need good time management skills and regular contact with the disabilities person if you need extensions/assistance with assignments/subjects. I will help you if I can - Stace has my email address. You go girl!!!

Go Jo!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 1. Aug 2007 12:13 AM

Good luck with quitting self harming, I know what you're going through and you have so much guts for deciding to stop.

Also good luck with your uni, what are you studying?

Written by babz, 1. Aug 2007 05:16 PM

Jo
All the best with Uni, which I think was pretty much my first entry here. You know me pretty well...I have to leave for a while as I can't manage this site right now.
Never know, I might even improve.....Don't worry about me, okay?
Regards.

Written by Deleted_User, 1. Aug 2007 06:40 PM

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