..Still in the dark, trying to 'fix' me ..
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 24. Jul 2007 10:31 PM
Its been about a week since I last wrote on here.. Haven't really been motivated enough to put things down into words nor understanding things enough to put them down in front of me..Still feeling very down at times..On the verge of tears most the time..
Its been abit of an up and down week for me..
My highlight of the week was going down to Stacey's for Natasha's bday..Was good to see a smile on Stace's face and was good to hang out with her..Love spending time with the 2 of them,makes me feel alive again..All the negative thoughts that have been living in my head disappeared over the weekend,thanks to Stace and Tash!
My downfall for the week was falling apart at work last tuesday..Broke down in tears and had an anxiety attack-lasted about an hour..
Have started back on the Effexor,hopefully the effects of that should start to improve things..
Have finished up with the drama therapy group on self esteem issues.. came away with alot of ideas and more of an insight into my 'issues'.. Will continue fortnightly sessions with my psychologist for a while til I'm stable enough to do it alone..
I go back to uni classes next thursday.. A lil scared about stepping back into it,I won't know anyone except the lecturer and I'm not good with making new friends..Just hope that there is no group work..If I can go in and do what I have to do,I'll be right.. I hope..
I have a meeting with the Disabilities Advisor on Monday to discuss the implementation of an Academic intergration plan which will help me with assessment tasks and keeping the stress to a minimum.As long as I can keep my stress and anxiety levels down,I should manage ok..As soon as either one of those is out of wack,thats it.. Have a letter from my psychologist to take with me to help my application go ahead..fingers crossed..
Will try to write more regularly so I can keep an eye on my progress with the meds and especially when I start back at uni..
Take care all,
Jo xo