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Throwing it all away,the canvas has been torn again

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Written by JoanneC84 18. Jul 2007 11:00 PM

I am powerless to stop the beast..
The beast is stronger,it has me in its grip..
I can not fight it..
I'm sick of feeling like this..
I'm sick of not being able to control my emotions,to control the tears,to control my anger.
I'm sick of being weak and carving up my body everytime I loose the plot..
I hate who I've become.
I'm sick of my thoughts.
I'm sick of my actions..

I just want to be free..
Seriously,is that too much to ask??
What did I do to deserve this?

Jo xo

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Comments from the community:

Hun

No one deserves this pain/torment you are going through.
Maybe you should see your therapist and see if you need to have your meds changed/reviewed.

Go Jo!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 19. Jul 2007 02:21 PM

Dear Jo

You don't deserve this...but it is you that is doing this to yourself...

The answer is 'self esteem'. I know you're getting heaps of help - but are they really addressing your self esteem issues?

It's all about the way you perceive yourself JoJo. It is possible to change this, and it is possible to get better. Don't lose hope honey.

Lots of love

Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 19. Jul 2007 02:56 PM

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