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You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not

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Written by JoanneC84 16. Jul 2007 10:25 PM

I don't know how to explain how I feel right now..I feel weird..I feel so hollow,so empty.. Life is going on around me at full speed and I'm watching it unable to slow it down or stop it..
I haven't been on my meds since thursday night and surprisingly I'm coping ok with that..Just feel so low and down that I don't think I have a moment to realise I'm not medicated.. I see my pyschiatrist tomorrow will discuss it further with her,atleast this way she can put me onto something else straight away..
I made the decision to stop taking them cos they turned me into a monster-I don't want to see that again..
Life seems really surreal at the moment..I'm living but I'm not..
Finding the true me,is such a difficult task..Like my title says 'You might wake up and notice you're someone you're not..' what if I still don't like the me that I find??
I dunno anymore..I really don't...

Jo xo

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Jo

Hope you are sure it is the best thing to decide you stop your meds, without the doctor knowing. Please see your psych/gp about stopping them - it may explain how you feel - med withdrawal.

Go Jo!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 16. Jul 2007 11:02 PM

Dear Jo

I absolutely guarantee that when you find you - you will like you - this will be the turning point of your life - and when you have that moment of realisation of 'self' (find you) - from then on you'll be walking in the light.

It is because we don't know ourselves, and don't trust ourselves, and don't like and value ourselves that we get depression. Behind hate there is always fear.

Fear is the prison of the heart.

Jo, you will move through this. The work your psych has been doing challenging your core beliefs sounds good. You're going to be ok Jo. It's hard working through and pushing through all this stuff - but you're on the right track.

Sending you love, strength, faith and hope.

Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Wolveress, 17. Jul 2007 02:48 AM

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