..I'm the narrator and this is another chapter over..
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 11. Jun 2007 11:52 PM
I really can't wait for this all to be over..This has been the hardest meds change for me ever.. Only 2 more days to go.. Both today and tomorrow are med free days-tomorrow will be a test cos I'm working for most of the day..Thankfully this weekend I was with Stace-safe and in the company of a great friend.The weekend was great but the meds withdrawals still haunted me-hot and cold flashes,headaches,shakes.. but the worst was this afternoon..
We were sitting on Stace's bed talking,then suddenly my head felt like it was guna explode.. so I laid down then had to close my eyes..My head was spinning and the pressure was so intense.. had to block my ears cos all sound was so loud..felt like things running thru my veins...All I could do was lay there and let it pass-Stace was there the whole time,keeping me calm with her presence.. I couldn't have made it through without you hunz,God only knows what could've happend without you being there..The next test was the drive home.I didn't get behind the wheel til the head spins stopped,but even then I still had a headache..It was ok driving home,but my eyes were still sensitive to the car headlights..
I made it home in on piece thankfully..I know it was dangerous for both me and others driving home but I had to...
This coming wednesday (13th) is my Grandma's birthday.For those who know my story,my Grandma and I were very close and her passing just over two years ago almost killed me.. So wednesday is going to be very hard,not only due to the fact that I miss her like crazy but also because I'll still be meds free until that night when I start the avanza..
Stace,thanks again for everything, for letting me into your life and into your family and for letting me be me around you.. love u and Tash to bits..Thanks for the hugs this afternoon and for helping me through that..
I'm gunna head off now,still feeling abit weird,exhausted despite dragging my ass outta bed at 11.30am (can't believe we slept in that long-Tash included)
Take care hunz,
Jo xoxooxo