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..Just let me slip away-shh and no one will notice..

A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 9. Jun 2007 01:00 AM

My head is thumping.
My body is numb and cold.
My heart is racing and ready to jump through my chest.
My hands are shaking.
My veins are itching..

I need to be free from this heartache and pain.I need to break free and walk in the light.If the shadow proves that the sunshine really exists,one would assume that you are walking in light.. where is that light?
All I see is darkness.
I feel like my walls are closing in on me.Like someone has reached in and grabbed my heart and is holding it in a vice..
This journey is so difficult and I feel so alone and so cold.. I just want it to be over and let me live my life the way it should be..
I have thoughts that I'm scared of.I hear things that I shouldn't.. I'm going crazy..It has got me in a firm hold..It has won..Oh God,it has won...

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Comments from the community:

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you - again.
I'm just sorry for everything. I hope your ok. Take care.

Written by Deleted_User, 9. Jun 2007 01:39 AM

I guess that there is such a time when all of us can relate to your poem...
At the moment I can SO relate to what you have written.
I just want an end to all the misery....
Cheyne

Written by hippiechick, 9. Jun 2007 02:40 AM

Jo,

You are switching meds right now and you are in a bad place. I was there not so long ago myself as you know. Even though right now the week or so til you start new meds and feel a bit better seems like forever away, it will come.
Just keep hanging in there, and I know how hard that is, but you are such a fantastic girl and an asset to this world.

(((((((((((((JOANNE)))))))))))))))

Be kind to yourself through this ordeal.

Best wishes from Kitty

Written by Deleted_User, 9. Jun 2007 04:28 AM

And yeah, the bit where it feels like all the skin on your body is trying to crawl off your bones? HATED THAT.
It does end though!

Written by Deleted_User, 9. Jun 2007 04:29 AM

Jo

Sorry you are in this situation. It is never easy changing meds and the withdrawal symptoms one gets from that.

I know this is none of my business and you can tell me off in a diary entry I don't mind, but can you please see it in your heart to try and sort things out with Stace. The two of you are great for each other and as you can see from her diary entry she still wants to help you out/is sorry.

I hope you can do that. Again feel free to tell me to mind my own business - no offence will be taken.

You will get through the change of meds and stop having all these withdrawal symptoms/problems.

Go Jo!!!

Studying1

Studying1

Written by studying1, 9. Jun 2007 04:59 PM

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