..Its been awhile deppies but I've decided to come 'home'.
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 26. May 2007 08:26 PM
Its been about a month since I last posted an entry on here...Its been about a year since I joined this site..Its been about 7 years since I was first officially 'diagnosed' with depression yet only 12 months since I began on the medication roller coaster..
I've always hated roller coaster rides but the emotional roller coaster is by far the worst ride..I am going through yet another meds change-the 225mg of Efexor XR seems to have done very little for the mood,however my CBT and therapy groups and the loving support from a few wonderful friends is the only thing keeping me going..So as I slowly reduce the meds,to then go cold turkey then onto something different,I live in fear but also live in hope that the next meds I go is the one to make a difference.
The value of friendship has been something that has always been important to me,but the friendships that I have made through this site has been life changing..I'm sitting here right now typing this at Stacey's house-if not for this illness I would never have met her,and my life would still be empty.I would say that you only have one true friend in your life time and I would say that I have finally found mine...Stace,you are one in a million girl-luckily cos I don't think the world could handle another one of you!! As we ride this rollercoaster together,don't be surprised if I sqweeze your hand tight (perhaps cutting off the blood circulation) cos this is gunna be a bumpy and scary ride! but I wouldn't wana do it with anyone but you..
Take care deppies,I will be back around alot more than I have been..I have been reading a few entries to catch up on whats going on...
Hope you all have a good weekend..thoughts and prayers with you all...
lots of love,
Jo xox