..I have no choice but to follow the voices in my head..
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 24. Apr 2007 09:59 PM
I have been a member of this community for the past 12 month,I have seen many people come and go for many different reasons.Reading back on the many entries I have written,the rollercoaster ride has been a long and scary one.. I have fallen flat on my face many times and come crashing back down to earth with a loud thud..
But despite everything,I have learnt alot.
I'm not 'cured'.I'm not happy.I am ok.I have longed for the day when I can say that I am ok and when I can say that I feel fine..
I have come to a conclusion that despite the great amount of support and friendships that I have made through this site,my time has come to call it a day.. I will continue to use the recovery program,to track my progress and will probably pop past every now and then to keep an eye on all of you.As I just said,I'm not 'cured',I just feel that I have to move on.. I have my meds,my psychologist,my GP and the support group that I joined as well as a creative therapy group which I start next week..
I feel that I can finally see some kind of change in me.Although deep down inside,I know that it takes all of a second to change.. Although I am not 'happy',I'm ok enough I think..
Thank you to all who have been with me on my journey.To Stace,Michelle,Leah,Donna,Susanne,Cath,Sue,Jenny,Nanna Val,Sammy,Kate,Em,Libby,Bryzy Boo,Lori,Tan and anyone that I may not have listed personally but know who they are-thank you for opening your hearts and letting me be part of your life..thanks for your support,kind words and for putting up with my crap..
Spread your wings my friends and fly into the light..The sunshine is waiting for us all..
I might be back before you know..I will come to visit but hopefully it is as a completely recovered deppie...
Take care everyone.. Always remember that no matter what you will never walk alone..
God bless you all.
Jo xoxo