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Written by JoanneC84 3. Apr 2007 02:23 AM

Numb.
Cold.
Lifeless.
Distracted.
Pale.
Torn.
Tired.

I hate what I have become.I hate the thoughts that consume my mind.I hate the darkness..Yet I can't find the light..

Jo xo

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Comments from the community:

Dear Jo

I want you to get some help. Your beautiful soul is still alive inside of you. It is just hurting a lot.

A good therapist can work with you to help you learn to help your soul. Then you will be in harmony. You can do it Jo, I know you can.

Living in depression is so much more painful than learning how to heal yourself. Living in depression is more scary than healing. Please believe me.

Please believe in yourself. You are beautiful.

Love Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Deleted_User, 3. Apr 2007 02:37 AM

Jo,

This is so beautiful. I know your pain sweety. I know it well and out of this darkness there is a special light for you to find. I need you to be not missing so you can explain this poem to me. I am hopeless at poems and I really liked this one.. But I don't understand it ... So please be here to explain it to me.. Love to you .. Dee (mollydolly)

Written by mollydolly, 3. Apr 2007 08:42 AM

Dear Jo

(((((((((((((((Jo)))))))))))))))

Peter

We all care very much.

Written by surfer, 3. Apr 2007 09:12 AM

Dear Jo,

I am crying for you and the pain you are feeling. That poem was beautiful and at the same time so sad - just like you.

Please Jo, reach out and get the help you so desperately need. Please Jo, before it's too late.

Love hugs and support
from Shadowdancer xxx

Written by Shadowdancer, 3. Apr 2007 01:11 PM

I can only say, "Keep fighting Jo." There's no just snapping out of it, I know that, while it's upon you, it's pain's in the extreme. For me it's been a long time coming, & I'm talking years, but I'm slowly beating it. I just kept on slogging away. I became addicted to pain killers & alcohol, then meth, as a way to lessen the pain. The pain was so intense, with no letup, that it was substance abuse or suicide.
Now I have to beat the addictions or they would've killed me.
I hope my experience can give you hope Jo. The light?, it's within each of us, we just have to find it, & tap into it. I know that's a clich'e, but it's true.
geo xo

Written by Deleted_User, 3. Apr 2007 01:22 PM

Jo

Please go and see your hospital or doctor and get the help you need. Hate is just a harsh word and you are it the pits of depression so it is understandable to feel/use hate in you writing/words. Please get some professional help. We will help and support you but you need professional help. Stace will go with you if you ask her I am sure.

Go Jo!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 3. Apr 2007 02:50 PM