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Written by JoanneC84 1. Apr 2007 08:06 PM

What do you write when you don't know what you're thinking?
How can you say how you feel,when you don't know what you're feeling?

Today is a dark day.I feel so crappy,I don't know why,I wish I could stop it..
I've been feeling rather ok the last few days..a complete turn around from the mess that I was earlier in the week...But now,I'm right back in the same mind frame..Back to the darkness,deep in the darkness,stuck in the darkness..

I'm on a never ending roller coaster ride,unlimited rides,it never slows down enough for me to jump off,it just gets faster and faster...
My head is spinning,I feel terrible..I can't explain it.. I just want to scream,I want to yell,but still no one will hear me..I'm surrounded by people yet so alone..I'm scared,I'm frightened..

I hate feeling like this.I hate not being in control of my thoughts..I hate being trapped in my head..

Jo x

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Comments from the community:

Hey Jo,

I hope you can overcome your battles with this terrible illness, I know it's like a never ending cycle for you sweetie, I love you lots. Please stay out of your shell.

Donna
xox

HANG IN THERE

Never forget what a treasure you are,
Try to realize how important you are
in the eyes of the world, No Matter where
you go, the hopes and hearts of others travel
beside you every step of the way...
Even though difficulties come to everyone,
it isn't fair when they hang around longer
than they should, Until a new day comes along,
please be strong enough to see things through.
Brighter days are going to find a way to to
shine in your windows and chase away any blues,
Know that no one deserves more smiles, success,
friendship, or love ...than a special person
like you.

BRIAN GILL

Written by super_sad, 1. Apr 2007 08:56 PM

I'm sending you my love and hugs Jo.

I wish we all could show you just how special you are to us all. You know you are never alone yet we feel like it.

Love ya gal.
Libby

Written by Deleted_User, 1. Apr 2007 09:43 PM

Jo

You gave Stace some advise that you should take on yourself. You need to realise it is the depression that is causing these feelings/rollercoaster rides. I know you and Stace are close/spend time together so hopefully you can help each other out and get through things together/supporting each other along the way.

Go Jo!!!

Studying1

Written by studying1, 1. Apr 2007 11:19 PM

Hey sweetheart

Are you seeing a counsellor/therapist. I think it would make a positive difference to your life.

I believe in you and look forward to the day when you feel safe believing in yourself.

Love Kimberly
xoxo

Written by Deleted_User, 2. Apr 2007 06:29 PM

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