..My thoughts for today..
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 22. Mar 2007 09:13 AM
I have spent so much of my life trying to dicipher my thoughts and feelings that it has only made me more confused..I have decided to stop trying to make sense of it all,to just sit back and let in unroll... I am not giving up on this,I just want it to be over.. My head exhausts me,I wonder at times will it ever stop and let me rest..
The last few days have been so great for me..I have been at Stacey's with her and her beautiful little girl..They mean the world to me and I would do anything to protect them and make sure that they are happy and safe...Stace,I can't put into words what you have done for me,you deserve so much better than all the crap that has been dished out to you..As I sit here,I can hear you and Tash upstairs attacking each other,that little giggle as you both tickle each other..That laughter and happiness should be there for you both always..
When I go back home the problems I ran from will still be there...But hopefully I can find the strength and inner belief to fight it, to fight my thoughts, and to beat this...
This is one long dark journey,which I have had my fair share of..I'm over it..Its abotu time that I moved forward into the light and stayed there,even if its for one day,I'll be happy...And Stace.. I'm dragging you with me...
Jo xox