Sometimes I wonder why I bother waking up each day
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 2. Sep 2008 06:09 PM
Just when I think I have experienced a majority of emotions-my walls come crashing down and the river of tears begin to flow again...I begin to feel lost and cold and numb again and unsure about what is going on..
Everything seems too hard at times.Sometimes it would be easier to just give in and let it win...Without my gorgeous girls (you know who you are)I would have nothing!I would be nothing...I wouldn't be here!
Things haven't been easy at home-what do you do when you don't feel wanted or loved in your own 'home'??? I feel like an outcast-like I don't belong here.I'm searching for somewhere else to live.I feel that if I continue to stay here,it will be the end of me.I can't even begin to start about what has happened over the past week or so..Just so over it..Sick of crying myself to sleep every night..
I don't belong here at home,I don't know where I belong.
I have run out of tears..They have run dry..
What else do I have?
Jo