I've hit a brick wall,just waiting for it to come crashing down
A page in the diary ".a pLc 4 miE haed..."
Written by JoanneC84 3. Aug 2008 09:23 PM
Writing used to come to me so easily..Now I sit and stare at the blank screen for ages,trying to put my thoughts into words-the thoughts that spin so fast and out of control...
Thoughts,feelings,emotions-its all too much at the best of times but almost unbareable when you are already feeling down so often.
Every moment in life could be our last-so why on earth do we reflect so much on the past and what we have done before??
I wish I had answers-not just for me but for all of us..
I wake up each and every morning wishing that by some miracle I might actually be happy-that I might just make it through the day without breaking down in tears,without having to fake my way through the day..
At the moment,I'm just really scared of cracking..I know all it will take is just one more thing..
'I'm one step closer to the edge and I'm about to break'
I'm really afraid of that day....Not just for me but for everyone I love.
Hope you are all on better pathways..
Jo xo