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Written by bluewave 15. May 2008 10:52 PM

I don't feel my best, I really just feel sluggish. Didin't go to work today and really wish I picked myself up and went to work, but I didn't I gave into mental exhaustion.

I just expect more from myself now, I felt better than this and I know I need to keep that feeling up by being constructive in my thoughts and actions.

At the moment I am loathing myself for the way I look and all the weight I have gained, I'm not distressed about it but I am dissappointed and ashamed.

I need to do better, be better, feel better! I really just need to get things back on track. My friends and family won't wait for me, I know they will not put up with another bout of depression and especially my family lack empathy on the matter.

I'm ok, i'm ok, im ok, gotta keep telling myself this ahhhh just frustrated and a little depressed.

Bluewave
xxoo

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Comments from the community:

Hey bluewave,

Go easy on yourself honey, with the ups come the downs and we just have to ride them through. Don't beat yourself up, nurture, nurture, nurture. Do something nice for yourself. I've just gotten off the phone from booking a 90min massage for myself tomorrow cause I was feeling so crappy earlier. Felt a lot better since i made the call.

You know the story... 1 step forward 2 steps back, that's how it is with depression. Don't know if I've used my favourite saying on any of your posts before but it's something my psychologist said to me after I went to see her pretty low after I'd been going along pretty ok.

"We knew this was coming.... we know this will end".

The way your feeling will have an ending and in the meantime you just have to make sure you look after yourself. You deserve it.

Take care,

Luv Karen xxx

Written by fly, 15. May 2008 11:46 PM

Blue

You need to get to work. It is your chance to get out of the house and have some social interaction. Please go to work or it could be serious consequences for you regarding work.

Don't put yourself on a silver platter and expect so much from yourself. Baby steps and you will get there.

Go Blue!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 16. May 2008 01:09 AM

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