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Written by bluewave 30. Apr 2008 07:38 PM

Hi my dear friends,

Thank you all who commented on my last post. I have realised that though my intentions have been pure, I have been too pushy with my girlfriend. From now on I will wait for her to ask for help, I won't push the police idea as I truely believe she is just too fragile right now.

I was so fustrated before, I guess I just felt helpless. But from your comments I know that I just have to listen and support her and let her recover at her pace, not mine.

Changing subjects, I saw my psychiatrist yesterday. It actually went well this time and he wants to see me in 3 months where by then we are going to consider taking me off all my medications (only if I stay feeling this good in 3 months time)

Also this is DAY 7 for me! I have quit smoking! :) It's so haaaaaarrrd I truely enjoy a cigarette after a meal. But I have made my mind up! The cravings will cease and I know I will feel so proud if I keep it up.

I have been feeling anxious about my appearance again...it creeps up now and then. I still crave self harm but I have not resorted to it for a very long time and I know it won't help. However the anxiety seems to be rising in me recently and I am worried it will bring me down.

A lot of Body issue, eating disorder stuff has come back into my mind but so far I have not cave in to it. Everyday is still a battle despite my recovery. God I hope I can keep on track.

Bluewave
xxoo

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Comments from the community:

Blue

You have made a brave decision and I am proud of you with regards to your friend. Be there for her and if she needs your help help her.

Great about the meds and your appointment with the psychiatrist.

Keep up the good work with the smoking - as I told Nouse - it takes 21 days to become a habit so take each day as one closer to a new habit and rid of the old habit.

Go Blue!!!

Mrs Studying1

Written by studying1, 30. Apr 2008 08:24 PM

Bluewave

Wow... you have made some fabulous progress... resisting the cravings from all parts... and no meds in 3 months time....

You made a good decision about your friend... your strength will help her...

the body image and eating disorder are tough customers and you are in control...

keep doing whatever you are doing... because it is working... so take care

rgds
cate

Written by cateblack, 30. Apr 2008 10:00 PM

Wise decision. So am going to push the point. Since you can't act regarding your friend's situation in any real way without her permision, I suggest that you not listen to her sordid details anymore. Personally, I believe she is deluded as no-one willingly puts themselves in that situation unless they want to be there. I can understand her sexuality may well be screwed up....but, she can keep the details to herself I reckon.
Or express it to a Professional peron. I say this bluewave because supporting a person in their delusions is very damaging, but so is confrontation. Better not to contribute except to be her friend, which doesn't mean listening to her rape stories.

Written by maple, 1. May 2008 06:22 PM

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