HAPPY :)
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Written by bluewave 24. Apr 2008 03:42 PM
Hello dear friends,
I have been talking a lot about my friends recently and not about myself. I can confirm and honestly say I am doing so well. Emotionally and mentally this is the best I have felt in 5 years!
The thing is this feeling has stayed fairly consistant and over 3 weeks, this is the longest I have been able to feel this way.
I forgive and have moved on from my ex 'boss/bf' I actually feel sorry for him, it's weird, I never thought I would be able to get over the rage and hurt from his abuse but I have. It doesn't hurt the same way. I haven't forgotten how much he hurt me but I no longer ruminate over it nor do I care.
I feel hopefull about the future. Leaving that destructive job has set me off in the right direction. currently working 3 days a week and going to uni next semester. I feel excited!
Guys I have been through a long journey just like all of you, and I want to amke it known that I am coping and thus it is possible for all of you to cope and improve and feel as happy as I am right now.
I want to spread my hope with you all. Now I that I don't feel as controlled by my depression I know my thinking is correct. All of us WILL get better. I know it! There has to be more to life than this, I am going to try and support you all as much as I can. I want you all to realize that life can be great, that the pain does ease in time, that there is hope that al of us are beautiful!!!
We are survivors!!! Remember we are all warriors in this battel, don't give up guys, keep fighting for life!
Bluewave
xxoo